job records 26/12/07

yesterday was the first time i seriously looked for a job in my whole life..later got choir practice so not much time to seriously write a report on it..so have to make do with a brief one..

firstly was the ntuc cashier job which gave the best pay if it wasn't for my frequent and unstable choir practices..2ndly the quite posh jap restaurant which needed us to work even after we go uni(in other words not temporary)..then me n my fren went to the row of shops near her hse(we stay ard the same area) to look for shops tt r looking for part-timers..found some with great luck..they have less expectations of workers (since i have absolutely no working exp at all they r a great place to start and they dun look down on me-_-)..then we went thomson plaza and cos there's many new shops there,we found some deals too..they say they will call me today or tml..o no i have choir pracs..guess the calls will sort of interrupt the pracs..and my hp is going out of battery..sigh..

listening to: 幸福合作社 by 范晓萱

i'll be home for christmas (i hope so..)

the past few days starting from 19th has been a buzz for me..caroling in a million different places in a day for so many consecutive days,i feel like a professional chorister or something..everyday i wake up early and go caroling,and only reach home at ard midnight..we dash from one place to another to sing carols..and for free time we wonder in shopping centres..

i finally understand the meaning of living everyday like your last day..the person tt i like,i tink i will nv see him again..i always thought yesterday was the last day i will see him..but it turned out tt he was sick yesterday after so many days of singing,n he didn't come yesterday..i was already lucky to be able to see him even after we graduate..choir gave me the chance..but now i will most probably nv see him again..o ya maybe only on the day we get back our As results..but i will nv forget him certainly..being such a good person..bye!

listening to: 斗牛要不要 by Tank

they kiss again..

tml 恶作剧2吻 will start showing in taiwan!after waiting for 2 years..finally!have been rewatching the 1st season these 2 nights..and the 感动is still there..when u rewatch the things tt happened to them and think abt them being married in the 2nd season,it felt like they have gone a long way before being together..they would nv have thought tt they will be together in the beginning..and anyway the show is over a long period of their lives..as can be seen from the 官方网站,they put 直树's age as 22-27..and similarly season 1 was from the time when they were 高三till they were the seniors in the university..in season 2 expectedly 直树 still treats 湘琴quite badly but u know tt he loves her actually..this part is real like nodame cantabile..chiaki seems to treat nodame badly,but deep down he needs her..

anyway the link list at the side have been rearranged according to how much i like the show..starting from jap shows to korean shows to taiwan shows to movies..only shows tt meet certain standards(in my heart) will be put there..nodame cantabile and 恶作剧之吻 occupy the highest position for each of their catergories coincidentally..i guessed i m most touched by this kind of stories where a cool guy becomes warmer because of a girl who disturb his otherwise normal and uninteresting life..haha

anyway..a good website for tips on solving sudoku is here..not bad..

listening to: 恶作剧 by 王蓝茵

under different situations..

..the same thing will look/sound/feel/taste/smell different..something tt u've tried ur best to do might collapse immediately in another context..and when all ur efforts are disregarded by others,u feel like u dun wan to work hard anymore because it wun be appreciated anyway..but no!tt shldn't be the way it is..because we work not for others..but for ourselves..to pass our own conscience..to feel gd abt ourselves..to not let down ourselves..

liking someone..

我觉得每跟他相处多一秒钟我就会更喜欢他，每跟他讲话多一次我就会更越被他吸引。他真的是一个很好的人，让人无法不喜欢，无论是女生或男生。i tink he has high EQ(which is what i m obviously lacking)..maybe tt's y i like him..he has what i dun have..he can communicate with anyone naturally and sincerely and make everyone happy..talking to him is very comfortable and makes u feel at ease..he is polite and gentleman and full of common sense and general knowledge..he can be serious when the situation needs it,and can be funny and naughty when tt's the atmosphere..he is really the best person i've ever met..

working hard..

who works harder after As than during As?me!what a stupid question and stupid ans..my god!i really work 100 times harder now than during As lah..on what?on all the weird choir songs of course!songs tt take ppl one hour to learn and one day to memorise takes me 3 days to learn and 1 week to memorise(estimation)..and tt is if i sit in front of my keyboard and practise non-stop(except for eating,sleeping and going toilet)..i m going mad!

how ppl love the christmas season and how i hate it..cos i m singing alto part and all the nice melodies of christmas songs become the most unlovable chains of musical notes(or 豆芽) tt i definitely dunno how to appreciate..that's the worst thing of being an alto..argh!10(or 12) christmas songs and the 4 competition songs(and 2 they have learnt finished and memorised..while me?dunno a thing abt them cos they learnt during my As)..i dunno how i will survive these few weeks..and carol is near!sigh..

listening to: all the weird musical notes in my head

lulala part 10..(finale!)

the hardest exam in a singaporean's life(other ppl say one),the As..had finished for me!now is the time to jiayou for choir because prac starts tml at 8.30am..wah like very busy like tt..but some things have happened tt make me feel tt i m really a 温室里的小花..i knew this long ago..but i didn't really want to admit..after my fren told me tt i was simple,i was happy because i felt tt its good to be simple..but now i realise i m simple because i have not experienced any true challenges in difficulties in life..even if there were possible challenges where i can improve myself,i choose to avoid them..unlike the title of my blog 每当选择路口我就挑难的路走..

no matter what,better not think so much n juz try to do my best in all the things i do..though tt's not easy already..

listening to: Beethoven's Violin Sonata No.5 Opus 24 'Spring' 1st Movement

nodame craze part 4

episode 7

1)"is it weird tt nodame is not eating anything?".."weird!"..chiaki can't help but worry abt her..plus the sad piano piece "Tristesse" by Chopin..u can't help but feel sad for the couple..

2)anyway as the shows goes on,u start to like mine's father..he's really funny..n really supports all the music stuff tt his son and the oke is doing..buying a full page of advertisement on a magazine..tt's not cheap ok..

3)"she talks a lot,eats a lot as usual..i worried abt her for nothing.."haha so u finally admit tt u r worried abt her..

4)"let me greet the oke's members!".."wait!y do u need to greet the members!?".."because i m your wife?"..haha tt's funny!..the way she reacts and the way she wears an apron to sch..haha she's really like his wife!..and chiaki didn't rebut when she said she was her wife..haha..he might be juz tired of rebutting her funny claims,but he can't deny tt they r always together,juz lke husband and wife!..haha

5)being caught by kuroki when they were in a position like they were kissing..tt was funny!haha..one of my most favourite scenes in the show..and then kuroki started to like nodame..haha juz because she looks like a gentle and good wife..ah dun be blinded by her appearance!haha..look at chiaki's expression after kuroki asked for her name..he seemed to have realised tt he like her..haha..the widening eyes!..haha

6)the hurt look she had when chiaki told her she wasn't suited to be a kindergarten teacher..u feel sad for her,yet u know her talent in piano shldn't be buried like tt.."i will go home alone today.i'll break up with u!".."let's live separately too..it's a divorce!"..u feel sad..but u feel like laughing too..she's totally like a kid lah..

7)giving eto sensei tips to keep her in class..haha puri gorota..huh?!haha..anyway the onara taiso(fart exercise) is simply FUNNY!my god!..haha..but the tune is nice!and the lyrics are funny!..way to go nodame!..u can become song writer!haha..

8)"EH!what happened to us breaking up?living separately?divorce?"..haha..of course chiaki knows nodame can't stand not being with him..he knows he dun have to worry abt her not being around him..because she will always be =) ..tt's y he's so habituated to having her around him and it's like she become indispensable to him..haha

episode 8

9)all those weird kinds of meat again!my god!haha.."i will pick up the phone..cos i m your wife!"..the wife thing again-_- ..haha and chiaki's expression when he thought his mum is coming to live with him..nodame was super cute haha..practising how to introduce herself to his mum..haha..if she really came chiaki will have a hard time explaining who nodame is to him..

10)nodame feeding him pudding and him eating it!haha tt was cute!n her wanting to help bathe him and helping him to take off his shirt..haha luckily chiaki wasn't totally dazed after all..haha otherwise they will really become like husband n wife..haha..and how can ppl drown in bathtubs!haha..

11)kuroki lost the competition!due to nodame!sigh..sad for him..and chiaki knew instantly tt it was related to nodame..haha..he dun need to chain her up cos anyway she wun ever cheat on him..even if she does,nobody will accept her anyway(except the blinded kuroki haha)..tt's y chiaki has nv worried abt tt..and he has nv thought abt the possibility of losing nodame..tt's y he only realise how he treasures her when she wasn't with him..

12)he buys the ticket with the best seat for her.."is it the girlfren seat?".."-_- no.."..haha u think he will admit it?..nodame enters a dilemma of whether to help chiaki overcome his aviatophobia..he will surely go to europe if he can take a plane.. =(

13)looking at nodame even before his performance was a strong proof of his love for her..

14)as nodame watched chiaki conduct,she finally realised tt chiaki shld not be limited by his fear and tt his talent shld be developed to its fullest..she finally got the resolution to help him overcome his phobia..the hypnotising part was real sad.."it's not your fault senpai..u can let it go now..it's alright..senpai can go on a plane now.."

ah when can i watch episode 9?!..let me see..i've waited for 5 days already..

listening to: Brahms Symphony No.1

lulala part 9..

it's the second last part already..so fast..nxt week tues will be the last day i wear sch u formally..n starting from then i need to start seriously finding a job which i noe now is not as easy as i think..n choir pracs will start n i need to put in lots of effort to not lag behind others..

ah..my true life starts nxt week..n the challenge starts then too..

lulala part 8..

it's part 8 already..quite fast actually..today's econs was..err i also dunno what..i know tt most of the questions were quite weird n not seen before but i juz used my common sense to ans the questions and my ans weren't as long as it shld be it tink..i had enough time to finish all qn for the 1st time in my whole life for a humanities paper..i even had too much time while i was doing case study one tt i thought i cld write a bit slower so tt my words r more legible..

ok left chem and phy paper 1 and my mum keeps asking me to look for jobs online..i tink she dun wan me to slack at home after As..i also dun wan..nv dun a job in my whole life before..wan to try myself in the society..would be an interesting and fresh experience..

lulala part 7..

this 2 days had been a big lesson for me..firstly,yesterday's phy paper 2 shook my confidence..secondly,the chem paper 2 today also made me change my view abt certain stuff..

i had half an hour left after doing the paper..after doing those parts tt i left blank,i had 20 min..usually i will juz start dreaming cos i dun believe in checking..it's too tedious and 'unfun' to do tt..tt is i assume i m not those careless type..but this time i checked my paper..the whole paper..until the last second of the exam..and the last 30 seconds(literally),i found 2 mistakes in my last question and quickly changed..i juz finished writing "ethanoic acid" when the examiner said "put down your pens"..so,what is the moral of the story..DUN ASSUME!..ok what a weird moral..

lulala part 6..

today's phy paper 2 was a disaster..i left 3 to 4 parts blank and many others were just crap answers because i had no idea what the questions were talking abt..even so..i m watching nodame episode 8 now..but my bro wants to use the com so i have to stop halfway..but this epi is definitely going to be touching as nodame helps chiaki to overcome his phobia even though she is afraid tt he will leave her after tt to europe..

ok got to go study chem liao..

listening to: Ai no Aisatsu (Salut D'amour) from Nodame Cantabile ost

Nodame Craze part 3..

no mood for studying though starting from tml it will be the chain of exams..ok so back to my nodame craze..

episode 5

1)"nodame,it's time to go to the sch!".."yes!"..haha they r simply like a couple lah..or brother and sister.."dun use ppl's internet first thing in the morning-_-"..haha..chiaki's house is forever open for nodame isn't it?..or u can say there's no difference between chiaki's and nodame's house..the 2 rooms might as well join together haha..

2)"i want to wear an animal costume!"..when nodame said this,u shld look at chiaki's expression..tt kind of gentle expression..fufufu..he's in love with her lah..

3)when strezemann said "those who want to go to the grp date,grab chiaki's chest!"..my reaction was like chiaki.."HUH!"..anyway the correct phrasing is "those who go to the grp date can grab his chest"..haha

4)the iyaan thing happened again when chiaki found out tt nodame has put a scary wallpaper on his com with her faces..haha..his expression when he found out was hilarious!..

5)after practising his Rachmaninov piano concerto,while going home he started worrying abt S Oke..and Nodame..hehe..when he heard nodame calling him,the expression was again a gentle one..ah..the couple is simply too cute..

6)recognising tt it's nodame from her playing the pianica for like 10 seconds is a clear symbol tt they r a pair,not juz 2 individuals anymore..

7)the rest of the episode is not cute anymore =( ..actually i shld say starting from episode 5 it's not so cute anymore..cos the main plot of finding nodame's piano talent starts..but of course there r still cute parts intertwined..when nodame watch chiaki play the concerto from the audience,it feels like the were very far from each other..and nodame wanted to shorten this distance by playing the Rachmaninov concerto too..all because strezemann said "as things stand now,u can't be with chiaki."..ah this part was so sad..who cares abt their background and how different they r!..because love can overcome anything!..but i guess strezemann is juz trying to ignite her inner talent in piano..

episode 6

8)nodame playing Rachmaninov until madness..when she goes to find chiaki in her ghostly look.."how many days have u gone without a bath!".."here's the clothes u left here the other time"..haha and saiko(chiaki's ex girlfren) looking at this angrily..hehe..

9)cooking porridge for her and worrying abt her..feeding her when she says she dun wan to eat and giving tt worried look when she still refuse to eat..ah..now u know how she has a place in your heart rite chiaki..n pulling her to sch just to play Rachmaninov because otherwise she's like a ghost..playing the concerto with her and being in tune with her despite her "diff from normal ppl" playing..tt's what u call a couple..and covering her with his suit when she's asleep..

10)the canned meat thing is funny haha..chiaki was feeling angry and went to the supermarket to buy all the meats on earth(canned)..fish,deer,bear..and kangaroo?!..haha nodame was terrified and said she wld treat him.."y do the sushi go round in circles!?"..haha chiaki grew up in europe after all..and eating only the nice parts on top of the sushi and giving nodame the rice at the bottom..tt's simply funny haha..and he's expression when he says "so so"..u've got to see it!haha..

listening to: Gershwin's Rhapsody in Blue

再见绿光..

再见here means seeing it again..not saying gdbye to it..y do i say tt..long after i watched 绿光森林 and came to know how impt believing is,it happened again..truly,ppl needs 信念to live a complete life..because 只要相信，就能看见幸福绿光..因为绿光就在你的心里..

the concept of believing appears in Goong S too,when Lee Joon says to his mother,“相信一个人是需要很大的勇气的，妈没有这个勇气”..when i heard this i was so touched!..truly..believing in someone totally and truly isn't as easy as ppl think..but if u can find tt someone whom u can believe in and he/she believes in u as well,its really a fortunate thing..

listening to: evacuating london from the chronicles of narnia:the lion, the witch and the wardrobe ost

こんなに近くで..

here's a nice page with all the lyrics of Konna ni Chikaku de..the ending song of nodame cantabile anime..the correct translated lyrics can be found at the comments part..but its a nice song..with the starting melody being beethoven's symphony no.7's melody..real cool..

listening to: Konna ni Chikaku de by Crystal Kay

Nodame Craze part 2

ah here i m again..now i m quite happy cos i saw a miracle happen!actually it was there all along but it takes chance to see it..i sure hope it stays n happens in other places too..n i will not forget those who made this miracle happen and will do my best to let others experience this miracle too..ok back to my nodame craze again..

episode 3

1)when chiaki opened the door and saw sakura he thought he saw a ghost,but when he heard nodame's voice he was like "nodame?.." and he opened the door immediately..this really shows nodame has a diff place in his heart already..much more impt than all other ppl..

2)when chiaki cooked for the 2 hungry ghosts to eat,nodame was like "this is instant soup rite?u have slackened off..*shakes head*"..haha.."is tt what a beggar shld say?"..haha..nodame treats chiaki like her private chef..

3)when nodame scolded chiaki as an ogre and devil because he told sakura to quit sch since she is poor..and then after tt nodame wanted to borrow his bathroom cos her gas was cut..chiaki said "what do u want from the ogre/devil?"..haha i shows tt he cares abt what she says abt him..haha

episode 4

4)this is my 2nd favourite episode (1st is the 1st epi)..mainly cos of the kotatsu tt allowed nodame to invade chiaki's space and dulled his senses..haha..as he sank into the warmth of the kotatsu(a table tt the japanese like to use..very warm),nodame helped him take food from the hotpot and said "cos i m your wife"..and he wasn't annoyed!haha..

5)after tt nodame really invaded his life..literally..she brought her stuff to his house,making his hse look like another "nodame's hse"..which isn't a gd thing(the messiness my god)..and the "lacklustre casual hair" when chiaki juz woke up.."shuteki shuteki!"..haha true..he looks nice with tt hair too..and he praises her for the first time.."she can be quite thoughtful after all"..haha..they r juz like a couple lah..

6)nodame sleeps on his bed(cos she had not slept on a bed for very long since hers is buried under her mountain of garbage)..haha and mine and masumi comes to chiaki's house..n finds nodame wearing pyjamas in his house!haha..it looks highly suspicious heh..the mess they make in his hse is simply astounding..sigh..what great frens he have..

7)when nodame lets him watch puri gorota and says he is like kazuo(the boy who always bullies gorota)..haha..he was like "y is it kazuo?"..and he eats the rice balls tt nodame made!(with a space candy inside which made him choke and faint later..haha)

8)he learns tt music can be expressed and performed in many forms and sometimes he dun need to be so strict with S Oke..he learns this from nodame playing beethoven's symphony no.7,the peice tt S Oke is playing for a concert..and learns tt all the ppl have their own special characteristics tt shld be respected..

9)S Oke performs!chiaki initially wore a nice suit,but to ease S Oke's nervousness he took off the suit and revealed what is inside!the S Oke t-shirt!his got a "Special Orchestra" printed on the back..real nice..he looks nice a normal clothes too!n he also looks super cool and 帅 conducting the orchestra on the conductor stand thing..

10)n the thing which make ppl look forward to the next episode..nodame finally succeeded in kissing chiaki while he was asleep on a bench..n he was actually awake!he juz wanted to thank her for all tt she had done and so let her kiss him..sly chiaki senpai..

listening to: Beethoven Symphony No.7 1st Movement

Nodame Craze..

ah..it seems like recently i've been actively using my blog..but its juz because i'm always on the com..looking at nodame stuff..and having nothing new to watch i rewatch the old episodes and feel like writing on my blog abt it..

ah Chiaki is really cute..the way he treats Nodame..actually i tink its juz like 恶作剧之吻..how 直树 treats 湘琴..he dun like her dirtiness and sloppiness at first..but her 单纯 and 'forever there' presence slowly made him 习惯 her presence and without her around he feels lonely and as if something is missing in his life..he worries abt her without knowing it and feels as if its normal to have her around him..here are some cute points and scenes in Nodame..

episode 1

1)when he cleans her house for her because he can't stand the mess in her house..tt's understandable since her junk is 'seeping' into his house slowly..haha..like he said.."what am i doing?"..haha cleaning her house for her..

2)then he cooks for her..cos her fish is cooked like charcoal.."it's nicer than my mother's cooking.chiaki senpai u r a genius!".."..tt's a bit too much..hehe..nxt time i will cook something nicer for u"..haha he said something tt he will nv say usually..n he really had to do it since nodame starts to go to his house to eat dinner since tt time..haha

3)he saves her from strezemann,the "dirty old man"..haha.."juz met him on the streets?tt makes him your friend?".."i have it here too.fluffy bed..".."is it senpai's bed".."er..yes".."and pillow?".."......my arm pillow ^-^"..haha tt's the funniest thing i've ever seen..i've watched it at least 50 times i tink..haha..

4)"iyaan".."what is tt iyaan for?"..this happens 3 times in this show(i watch only until episode 7 now)..everytime they do tt it's real cute..

5)"it's only been a few days..why?!?!"..haha nodame's messy character can't be changed easily i guess..

6)"weird..your head stinks!".."really?i just washed it 3 days ago.".."3 days ago!!!"..and then washing her hair n drying her hair..haha y would he do tt to a girl he dun like..and looking at her with tt gentle expression..ah so cute..

7)"could this be falling in love?".."no,absolutely not"..haha when chiaki used his hand to stop nodame from kissing him..real funny..

episode 2

8)"huh?y is 2 fishes cheaper than 1?"..haha i guess it's his fate to buy 2 fishes to eat with nodame..haha..and the jealous look when he saw her eating in mine's father's shop and mine's father saying nodame is mine's destined girl..haha..though throwing back the fish is a bit..haha.."she goes anywhere where she's fed"..haha true

9)carrying her all the way from home to school when she caught a cold on the day tt she's supposed to accompany mine in his exam.."what am i supposed to do with this dying caterpillar thing?".."how would i know?be grateful tt i brought her here!"

10)letting her sleep on his legs while waiting for mine's exam..they r simply like a couple..or father and child u can say haha

11)carrying her on his back while going home..haha..stop denying tt u like her chiaki..

ok the rest i will write nxt time..gotta go bathe..

listening to: Ai no Aisatsu (Salut D'amour) from Nodame Cantabile ost

a test of endurance..

argh..i think it will be nxt week tt it finishes..n juz now i nearly succumbed to my desire..ah..i can't!i muz wait..good things require waiting..n after waiting it becomes even better..ok so i muz endure!mm..it shld be after nxt week's series of exams before i can watch it..so meanwhile..concentrate!!!on exams of course..

listening to: Mozart's Piano Sonata in D+ for Two K.448 1st Movement

i m still here..yea..

and i've been on the com at this kind of times for the past few days..on last fri it was until 5am..on sat until 4am..on sun until 2.30am for chem..yesterday until 3am for maths..today until now..but my record was when i watched hanazakari no kimitachi e..on 1 day i watched the last episode until 6am in the morning..luckily my parents didn't realise (they r quite asleep i guess)..anyway juz now my mum woke up to tell me off already..and anyway there's no Nodame to keep me from sleeping..but tml there will be..(tt's what i hope sincerely)

meanwhile before that..muz study for a bit lah..i tink i can enter the guinness world record for slackest person in the world during a major exam..ok anyway can go sleep liao..though juz now in afternoon i sleep a lot liao..

listening to: Gershwin's Rhapsody in Blue

lulala part 5

i have a Nodame Cantabile syndrome now..o no..i can't do anything now cos my whole head is filled with the show..the songs (yes even the classical ones)..Nodame's cute expressions..Chiaki senpai's funny faces and 帅气 expressions and when he jealous of Mine (when Nodame was close with him) and when he wear apron..ah..can't get it off my mind..

ok today maths paper 2 finish..nxt week is the heavy week with 4 papers..econs being one of them..ok..dun care first..have to rest first..haha (an obvious excuse)

lulala part 4..

ok chem paper 3 finished..it was ok..n those topics tt i dun have time to study didn't come out..-_-..ok i muz say tt my luck for exams has been good for all my life..dunno whether its a gd thing or what..tml is maths paper 2..forgot most of the statistics stuff tt i learnt already..haha but dun care..later still got time..

found another nice show..Nodame Cantabile..initially i juz watched it cos Kimura Ryo is in it..though he's only a small character in it..anyway he's Nakao Senri (aka 中央千里/李承央) in Hanazakari no Kimitachi e (aka 花样少年少女's jap version)..he's a cute guy who can act well..ok back to the topic..it's a real nice show after i started watching it..(a bad thing tt i started before As ended..cos i can't stop myself from thinking abt it..argh..even during exams juz now i was thinking abt it..and the nice music)..o ya its a classical music show..as u can see from the name "Cantabile"..i juz found the meaning from dictionary.com..songlike and flowing in style..truly..

帅哥美女 is still present in the show..but not juz tt only..they have the 气质 of musicians..truly..esp Chiaki Shinichi (starring Tamaki Hiroshi)..he's really so so so 帅 when he conducts the S Oke (Special Orchestra) in epi 4..ah i m falling in love..only watched until epi 5..deeply in love with Chiaki Senpai..go to here where a Malaysian fan set up a website which has all the nice stuff regarding this show..the youtube videos she posted r nice too..some NG scenes are funny like mad..haha..

listening to: Beethoven's Violin Sonata No.5 Opus 24 'Spring' 1st Movement

chem..o my..

here i m again..i juz realised how late it is already..searching for some chem stuff..cos these questions have been in me and in my lecture notes for longer than a year already n i only have myself to depend on to solve them cos erm..how do i say it..my chem teacher is quite..err u noe..impatient..

nvm..so what i wan to say is i found it finally!on this page..it's about melting point of straight vs branched alkanes..cos my sch notes got some discrepancy and so i wanted to noe..anyway the conclusion is tt:

1)boiling point of branched alkanes are lower than straight alkanes cos need less energy to break the intermolecular forces since got less surface area in contact to form the temporary dipole-induced dipole attractions.

2)for melting point it's not straightforward cos u need to take into account of the shape of the molecule as well..if it packs better into a solid,it requires more energy to break and so higher melting point.

anyway want to say tt 苏打绿's 无与伦比的美丽 is very nice..and the other songs in jay's new album are also not bad..the songs season is here again!

listening to: 无双 by 周杰伦

lulala part 3

ok maths paper 1 finished..the nxt is chem..woo..

jay's new album out..after the refreshing 牛仔很忙,the next song is 彩虹 with the melody from "first kiss" in 不能说的秘密..really nice melody..so..support him n u can't be wrong!

listening to: 彩虹 by 周杰伦

lulala part 2..

ok i counted and in total there r 10 a level days for me..not a lot..i expected more..so,one fifth of it has past (tt's what i call looking at things on the bright side..)..tml nothing..the day after there's maths..and chem's (my worst fear since after common test 3 this yr) nxt week..n guess what?i haven't touched chem the WHOLE time after prelims..really..i'm not joking or exaggerating this time..i haven't TOUCHED the stuff..other than (of course) the times when i accidentally touch my chem notes while searching for my other subject notes..

so..shld i be here now?no i shldn't..ok..i shall go sleep now..haha

lulalalulala...

juz finished 1st a level paper - phy paper 3,n it feels like i've finished As..slack like dunno what..tml is GP..the only thing tt u cannot revise..haha..ok actually u can..n i shld be reading notes to "broaden" my knowledge on world issues and current news and stuff..but i m not..instead i m sitting here writing my blog..ok..writing blog is sort of practising eng too..

不容易得到的才是珍贵的..

也可以说是自己努力争取到的才是珍贵的。因为是电脑白痴所以每当电脑出问题都会很伤脑筋。firstly when using this laptop,chinese words dun show..on a 偶然的机会,i installed nero and dunno y after chinese words could show..but tt time i tried hard on nero so tt i can burn wma files on cds,not only mp3..real happy..

playing 逆转裁判4 wasn't easy cos it was diff to find a download which could start and finish..i tried for 1 day..and then realised the downloaded game cannot open on visual gameboy advance emulator..then i realised its format is nds,not gba like the past 3 games..i searched online (of course in my fav wikipedia site too) and found out tt it stands for nintendo ds..so i searched for the emulator which could play it..downloaded abt a dozen (ok not so exaggerating but definitely not under 5) emulators to try..searched for dunno how many hours..2 could..one was slow..the other was ok..but the ok one cannot play the audio of the game properly (the slow one dun even have sound)..so i played the game without sound..anyway here's the link to it..forgot whether its from this site tt i download..but if cannot juz go search iDeaS emulator under yahoo..http://www.ndsemulator.com/nintendo-ds/ideas-download.htm..

another prob which cropped up in the middle of the game is tt cos nintendo ds has a microphone n it's used in the game,i need to use it on the com too..but how?the laptop is not a nds and it has no microphone..then i thought of the old-looking microphone (those kind attached to a headphone) tt my brother has..wanted to use it but he was at home all day and cannot get near it..waited for a few days and got the chance tt he wasn't home to try it..detached it from his com (and checked which end of it was attached to put it back later like i've never touched it)..and tried......it worked!my god!i m real clever i muz praise myself..muahaha..i'm a genius!

n what have cropped up now again?the weird thing is tt in the afternoon i was still watching a video and then in the evening the media player classic thing said my com lack some codec thing..i've seen this before but my bro fixed it cos he wanted to watch videos too..but now tt he doen't,i've to rely on myself (yet again..)..though i highly suspect its his doing cos how can the com suddenly lack the codec thing in a few hours?even my past videos can't be watched..as my life largely depended on watching videos (sad to say..),i once again set out on the journey to the scary realm of technical com stuff..searched wiki n realised it means compressor and decompressor..though this didn't help a lot..haha..and searched the web for codecs to download..once again i tried many..n found a good one called k lite mega codec pack..http://www.afterdawn.com/software/video_software/codecs_and_filters/index.cfm..
its description was highly 令人期待的.."K-Lite Mega Codec Pack is a free software bundle which contains everything you need to be able to playback the most popular audio and video formats"..so i tried this n tada..got it!though i downloaded it like 3-4 times cos everytime something will crop up in the middle..like my bro cancelling it..or needing to restart com..everytime it took like half and hour..so this is a 得来不易的东西 also..

all in all..hard earned gains are the most precious and u will start to appreciate some things in life tt u took for granted..so dun be afraid of difficulties cos they will train u to be strong and tough..muahaha..n u will start thinking u r the cleverest person on earth..haha like me..

listening to: Promise by se7en

goong s..

its ratings in korea weren't tt great n everyone said tt it was not as gd as goong..but i do not think so..i tink it cannot be compared with goong and actually both of them are great shows..
i started watching when it showed on channel u..the first few episodes seemed quite boring and a bit stupid (haha) cos its abt this 自恋 guy who only cares abt his looks and all..haha..but then as i cont watching it gets interesting..when the 2 princes started liking the same palace maid girl..lee joon looks real like joo ji hoon anyway..i always get the impression tt its him..haha..anyway their looks have the 贵族 feeling so they r quite suited to their roles..

as u watch u start to like lee joon..he changes to become a brave guy who knows how to defy his parents for the right reason..and he has integrity to fight for the crown prince position using his own abilities..he learns how to love someone not for his own purposes but simply because he loves her..

meanwhile,kang hoo changes to lee hoo..he matures,for the sake the crown prince position and all these he does to wash the grievances of his mum..he forsakes his past life..he forsakes his love for soon yee..u feel sad for him and for all the main characters in the show actually..they are all victims of the palace life..

ok going to watch the 11th episode now..sigh..feel sad when i see lee hoo like tt..

listening to: Miracle by Howl from Goong S OST

sometimes ppl can be forgetful...

i went to my yahoo mail and saw a folder i labelled 'letters'..it was during sec 3 and 4..i exchanged emails with my pri sch fren (a guy) because of 机缘巧合..and this went on for 2 yrs..as i look thru the numerous mails,i realised tt i've totally forgot abt this experience of saying so many things to a guy..if i haven't left the mails and kept them (though only half of it i tink),i wld have totally forgotten of this special memory..

today,this guy n i r in the same sch..but we behave as if we dunno each other..even during pri sch gatherings..i dunno when we started to become like this because we had been such close pen-pals..we shared our true feelings and experiences..i really regret not keeping this frenship because of my own shyness and 'daoness'..argh..but i dun have the courage to walk up to him n apologise for this and tell him tt i wish to cont this frenship..this is simply too diff for a girl to say and it may look like i like him..moreover,i dunno how he has changed this 2 yrs..maybe he has forgotten abt this pen-pal thing too and have no wish to cont this 若有似无的 frenship..

neglected my blogger blog for so long because i was using livejournal blog..changed back because it doesn't allow me to put up unlimited no. of links..旧爱还是最美..

listening to: 布衣神相's 主题曲

resolutions..again..

i have made..no..tried to make numerous resolutions but none turn out to be successful..n the least successful ones were those made recently..as i get older,i stick less to the resolutions i make..

i'm going to make some more now..i dunno if i can succeed..i dun dare to promise..but i'm afraid tt it is due to this lack of determination to promise tt i can keep to my resolutions tt prevent me from keeping them..but 'A's is juz a moment away n i've got no time to lose n no time to doubt my own ability..or inability..

1)stop damaging myself in ways only i noe..stop tinking tt it is the last time tt i will do it because it will never,,

2)no more shows from now till 'A's end..for real now..except the last 2 episodes of hanakimi of course..hehe..

3)no more other stuff..the less u noe the happier u'll be..the less u get the less chance u will be caught..(this is one which i m not sure tt i can fulfill,but i will have to try..keep my focus..focus..focus..)

4)shorter bathing times pls..drink more water..eat more fruits..and u will be happy..all these are linked together..

谁把任意门借给我...

这样我就可以随心所欲，做我想做的事情，成为我想成为的人。

abt 3 hours later in japan,hanakimi epi 11 will show!the 2nd last episode already..really excited..meanwhile my revision for my prelims is getting nowhere..tml is maths so still ok..the day after is chem..die..haven't touch yet..have to rely on my short term memory again..

listening to: 不会爱 by 飞轮海

只要相信，就会看见幸福绿光！

i was about to start watching the 9th episode of hanakimi online when i decided to try again the website to find the nice quality video..i have tried every few hours for the past week..thinking maybe the person haven't subtitled it..i waited patiently until today..today in japan the 10th epi is out..i thought maybe the website had no use anymore..no more from there..but it came out!juz when i was abt to watch on veoh!..no wonder the youtube person got suspended..cos it is fated tt i watch the better one..

ok so i m going to bathe now so tt i can enjoy the video later..i have always believed in believing n today my believe is confirmed yet again by firm evidence..ok..

i juz found from online that the time in Japan is 1 hour after Singapore..so about 40 min from now..in Japan..the 10th episode is out n more ppl will be pining for more..and the nice translator person will help the thousands of chinese hanakimi fans translate the words so tt they can watch this fantastic drama..thx a lot!

i m in love with this drama!and the songs too..nice!

listening to: ikenai taiyo by orange range

time passes fast..

one second i still cld watch ep 9 of hanakimi..and the nxt second i can't cos tt person's account was suspended..btw i juz found another website http://www.veoh.com/ where there r nice dramas to watch..n mmm..shld i say it is better than youtube?..ok but i muz acknowledge tt youtube has more videos since it is more popular n more widely known..

anyway another person has recently juz got the place of ikemen in my heart..btw it means 帅哥 in jap..watched hanazakari no kimitachi e..the jap version i mean..better than taiwan version i tink..

after watching both the jap and taiwan versions of hana yori dango(流星花园) and hanazakari no kimitachi e(花样少年少女) , i muz say tt japanese has different way of shooting dramas compared to taiwanese..台湾偶像剧 are funny..but sometimes in a superficial way and u get tired of it..maybe i m being unfair to taiwan dramas because i watch too much of them and get used to their way of telling jokes..n thus find the jap way fresher and funnier..

o ya i juz realised i forgot to say who is tt ikemen..Ikuta Toma 生田斗真..he's really cute..he act as Nakatsu Shuichi 中津秀一 in the show..the role that 汪东城 acted in the taiwan version..both of them r equally cute i muz say..but Ikuta is a bit more 帅 than Jiro..haha he's really cute in the show..and acts really well..juz now my fren showed me a video where there are pictures of him when he was 13 yrs old..haha so cute..esp the 老土 hairstyle..haha..

shhh...

请大家不要告诉别人这个秘密！让他们自己从电影里发觉吧！不能说的秘密的意思就是‘不能说’嘛！

最美的不是下雨天 是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐

你说把爱渐渐放下会走很远 或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋 这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现 这幸福的碎片 要我怎么捡

listening to: 不能说的秘密 by 周杰伦

mad human beings...

can we stop torturing one another?y is the world like this?y do ppl want to harm others who have done no harm to them?y do ppl always think tt they r rite all other ppl r wrong?y can't we seek a peaceful solution?y muz we be so cruel?y muz we take pride and vengeance so imptly tt we let them blind our eyes n freeze our feelings?

pls go to http://refugeesg.wordpress.com/ to sign a petition to help.
pls pray for the korean hostages.
pls teach your children,your parents,n everyone ard u,to see this world with love and treat ppl's differences with respect.treat fellow human beings with heart.

listening to: A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton

nothing better to do..

i m talking to my maths teacher rite now on msn..feels real weird..he's a real fun teacher though..n he doesn't behave like a teacher..i mean not in the bad sense but in the gd sense..he's quite cute and funny n teaches well too..

anyway the new song by 迷路兵 is not bad..mmm..

harry potter is a phenomenon!go to wikipedia and see how many pages r devoted to hp stuff n u will noe..the thought tt went into writing the story is wat makes it successful.it will be in the history book nxt time!n i m proud to say tt i sort of grew up with hp and the series cos the age of students inside is quite like mine..so cool..i live in the hp era!nxt time i can tell my children and grandchildren how hp was so popular!

p.s. my maths teacher is really so funny haha..still talking to him..

listening to: 泪 by 迷路兵

新的小说...

我又荒废了我之前的小说了！我就是这种人，这个部落格里都不知道有几部才开始一下就没下文的小说。我总是半途而废，三分钟热度。anyway, 之前写得最长的小说，那个有part 3 的那个，是关于我自己的暗恋故事。本来想写到后面就写自己的幻想故事情节，但是又懒得写了。现在想开始另一个，是从《青梅爱竹马》和《不能说的秘密》这首歌而得来灵感的。希望会维持比上一部久吧！

listening to: 不能说的秘密 by 周杰伦

芳草碧连天...

最近看了一本台湾小说，网路小说家trsita的《青梅爱竹马》。好久没有看故事书了，是偶然和朋友借来看的。写法好像台湾偶像剧似的，也是吸引我的地方。有很感人的故事情节，让我哭得好伤心。读的时候有99%的时间是在听着周杰伦的《不能说的秘密》，这首歌好像很适合这本小说。不过之后我读了序才发现作者在写这本书是是在听着张惠妹的《永远的画面》，才去听了这首歌。真得蛮好听的，轻快的旋律让人不由自主地想到故事中男女主角小时的相遇和做伴时的欢乐时光。相比之下《不能说的秘密》会让人想起女主角小时不快乐的记忆。

建议如果想开心地读《青梅爱竹马》的活就边读边听《永远的画面》，如果想痛哭一场就听连歌词都有点适合的《不能说的秘密》。

listening to: 永远的画面 by 张惠妹

当我已经淡忘你时...

在假期这段时间都没有机会见到你，我已经开始淡忘你了。开学第一天见到你时，你剪了头发，还蛮可爱的！也换了新书包，蛮有形的。你总是让我不由自主地望向你，我无法再骗我自己。今天我第一次感觉和你有所互动，好开心哦！你取笑我俏皮的样子我想我永远都不会忘记。他们说我脸都红了，他们应该认为我是因为被取笑而脸红的，但其实原因是你。第一感觉原来你也知道我的存在，你也承认自己有一个这样的同班同学（我）。真的好开心！

这样的机会或许不会再有了吧！很享受这5,6 个月来能够那么常见到你，也很庆幸自己能够加入合唱团（有时你的同班同学）。因为这让我看见了双面的你。面对音乐的你是那么的执著并热忱，眼神中的光芒让我为之一亮，也让我在疲惫时能够清醒一点。在班上，我看到了你也有累的一面，原来你也是个平凡人，不能够随时保持着在合唱团里所有的精神。你常常累得躺在班上的桌上睡着，今天你还睡到整个头都红了呢！睡眼惺忪的样子也挺可爱的，哈哈。你是一个很随性的人，直来直往，从来不掩饰自己的情绪，让人感觉和你在一起的时候很舒服。

或许我再也找不到一个像你一样的人了。但是不管怎么样，我一定会永远记得你，我第二个暗恋的男生。

woohoo...

today has been an eventful day..hehe too many coincidences and funny things happening to me..

firstly cos i lost my phone so the contacts r all gone too..then i received an sms asking 'in your opinion which are the difficult topics to understand and apply?'..n i was like 一头雾水 cos i dunno who sent it..so i replied 'who r u?what r u toking abt?'..then after tt i got 2 of my teacher's hp no. from my fren cos i thought i might need them when i got qns to ask and cos one was my former ct and she had her birthday yesterday..after a few hours i checked my hp for smses and i realised to my astonishment tt that sms was sent by my phy teacher whose no. i juz wrote in a few hours ago..i 恍然大悟 n sent a new sms telling him my ans..n i thought the previous sms was a bit hmm..erm impolite..haha..any it is the WEIRDEST thing tt can happen on earth tt he sms me n ask me this..cos last time when i had qns n sms him he always dun reply..

anyway the nxt thing is we had a class outing today..the first and only ever i tink anyway..though u might not consider it as one cos only slighting more than half the class went..but its the best tt we can get already..at least there's like guys..cos normally we are quite disintegrated and girls go out by ourselves..

ok the last n most WOW thing tt happened to me today is tt my aunt bought a hp for me cos i lost mine..my god!n the coincidental thing is tt it is the same model as my fren's..nokia 6300..maybe its common or something..but during the class outing my cousin called to ask wat colour i like..i was like 'what!'..i wasn't confirm it was him cos he dun wan to tell me who is he but i cld sort of recognise his voice..i was like 'how did he get my hp no.?' and i juz replied him 'blue' and he said '......err..then between black white and red?' i was like y is he asking me this out of the blue?..anyway i said white..and at tt time we were discussing abt how much my fren bought her phone for cos its a new one..and i was playing with the sudoku inside the phone..and guess what?..when i got home i found the new phone tt my aunt bought for me!..o my god..its the most peculiar thing tt happened to me..

and anyway to end off..my common test ended today!..haha so now i watching 微笑pasta and playing maple..back to the 颓废 life..but not for long cos prelims and 'a's are coming..sigh..

listening to: 就微笑了 by 张栋梁

当大家同在一起...真吵闹无比

recently my hse is like the most populated unit in the whole block..8 ppl sleeping under one roof..tt's the max this hse has ever seen..compared to the average of 3 last time,it feels like a huge number..n tt's cos my grandma's in our hse..she was juz discharged from the hospital yesterday and all the relatives are swarming to our hse to see her..2 slept in cos my grandma still needs care and my mum can't handle it alone..

anyway this is argh..i dunno how to describe it..o ya and i m not a 书呆子/mugger/bookworm like everyone who knows me say..those ppl who often say this helps me to see who dun understand me..cos if u noe me well u wun ever say tt..but anyway until now nobody knows me well enough to know tt..but i dun blame them cos it's me who dun wan to let other ppl noe me too well..

只要笑一笑，没什么事情过不了

又再爱上一部偶像剧了。唉..原本之前我哥哥在看时我觉得肯定是一部很无聊的戏，而且在SCV我看了几集也没有特别喜欢，但是在电脑上补看一些集数的时候就爱上了。在一天，不，应该是几个小时内我就爱上了这部戏。《微笑pasta》看似一部超级无聊的偶像剧（因为其实真得还蛮无厘头的）但是其实满感人的。现在回想一下，我好像是在看成晓诗跟阿哲说她喜欢何群时爱上这部戏的。她是那么的自然、下意识地说出那句话的：“我真得很喜欢何群耶。”她自己也为自己会说出这句话而感到惊讶。就像这部戏的其中一首歌，六甲乐团演唱的《零的领域》里的歌词一样。

放弃一切对我来说已不再重要

潜意识里 狂乱的爱你 已不在意 想念的距离
我在这里 没人敢靠近 你就是我 世界的中心

这首歌超好听的，推荐给大家。别听歌曲的前部分觉得是很摇滚的歌就不听下去了，因为我本身也不是太喜欢摇滚的歌，只是听到副歌部分的旋律真得太令人悲伤了！而且歌词也太感人了吧！潜意识里爱着一个人正是这部戏里两个主角的写照。他们是爱着彼此的，只是他们都没有发觉，但是潜意识让他们无法不想念彼此。注意副歌部分的“潜意识里”和“我在这里”的转音，实在太好听了！可惜没办法把这首歌放上blog，那你们只好自己上网或买原生带去听听看了。这部戏的每首歌曲都蛮好听的，如果你有看这部戏更能体会歌曲的歌词。

哦对了戏里讲述何群和他父亲的关系的部分也是令人看了蛮难过的。特别是当他的父亲以为买药的人是阿哲而不是何群时，真的替何群难过。

listening to: 零的领域 by 六甲乐团

没心没肺...

我的hamster 小白死了。从我中三那年(2004 may) 开始养它起就没有很好的善待它。有时一两天都没有喂它，有时没有为它装水，而它的小房子我也是每次等到脏到不能脏时才帮它打理。我发觉我这个人一点爱心也没有，连动物都不能好好去爱护，何况是人？

listening to: 幸福的理由 by 张栋梁

小说 - 第一回 - 他(part 3)

机缘巧合下和班上的同学一起打篮球，他也有打。看着他利落的身手和潇洒的动作，要我不迷上他也很难。玩到一半有一位女同学不小心扭到脚，他很有男生风度的帮她（因为他应该有扭伤脚的经验吧）。那时的他真的是迷死人，因为认真的男人最有魅力嘛！之后那个害那个女生扭伤脚的男生非常愧疚，所以想送她走出校门去搭巴士，但是又好像有点害羞。于是他（我喜欢的那个他）便调皮地起哄说那个男生是为了送那个女生出去而故意弄伤她的。那是我第一次看到他这么调皮捣蛋的一面，也没想过原来他的性格还蛮可爱的！

一直认为我和他不是很有缘，因为不论什么事情有分组时，我从来没有和他同一组过。唯一一个和他一样的就是general paper 和他同一班。但人总是不要太贪心比较好，这样我也应该知足了。可惜的是第一次我去上课时因为没有和我班的人在一起，所以坐在最前排，而我班的人全部坐在最后排，包括他在内。因为这样所以general paper 课分组时也永远不可能和他同一组（第一课之后的座位是照旧的）。不过有一件我觉得很好玩的事，就是因为我们的general paper 的老师是印度人，所以她不能很清楚地记得那么多华文名字。于是有一次她把我的名字叫成了他的。虽然我知道她只是不小心的，但是却超开心的。我的名字是跟他的有那么一丁点儿的相似，所以至少我们有一个共同点。

sad case...

recently this is my new 口头禅..and now i realise it really suits me..n the situation i m in now..i m going from bad to worse..yesterday my mum told me abt a cousin's cousin who is in integrated programme..and he got retained..can u imagine tt..isn't ip people supposed to be the cleverest ones..he was really clever and from a gd sch..but perhaps bad influence from my cousin had made him slacken and got him into the situation now..

looking at my second brother working so hard recently,i feel like shit..i m like 99% confirm tt i will be like my cousin's cousin if i continue to be like what i m now..so i decided to make some resolutions on my blog..this can help me be more resoluted (as the noun already implies)..

1)from now till A levels finish, no computer and tv on weekdays. 2 hours max on the com on weekends.

2)max 30 min for bathing.no more dilly dallying.no more bathing after 7pm unless other activities doesn't permit it.

3)no more eating when feeling full..even if there is SUPER delicious stuff in front of me

4)no more damaging of my own body

p.s. now i understand the value of autosaving drafts in blogger.its a fantastic function for idiots like me who are blur like dunno what.i love blogger!n my blog..

花より男子２

real nice show man..got addicted to it..it has been long since i have cried so much watching a show..and i must say 道明寺司 is nicer with his hair straight..haha..but 花沢類 is still the cutest out of the 4..when he's serious he looks like someone who's reliable and can protect u..n when he's playful his smile is so child-like..like a 6 yr old trapped in a 20 yr old body..o ya and the way he talks is also totally like a kid..cute!!!

listening to: love so sweet by 嵐

我们都活在同一片天空下...

道明寺司：无花果，如果从中间切开就会变成心型，所以有人说无花果酸酸甜甜的味道，就是恋爱的味道。但是对我来说，恋爱的味道，就是你做的蹩脚饼干的味道。

日本《流星花园》系列里最感人的一句话莫过于这句了。总觉得《流星花园2》比较好看，因为人物的感情都得以很好的发展，不像第一集里感情的描述不太完整，杉菜为什么会爱上道明寺都让人一头雾水。不过总的来说还是比台湾版的好看，可能因为集数少所以不拖拉吧。人人都应该看的一部戏。让我找回了很久都没有感受的感动。

还有原声带也超好听的。听着听着仿佛自己也进入戏中参与着主角们的故事。特别介绍第一张原声带中叫 つくし(Tsukushi) 的一首歌。（Tsukushi 是杉菜的日文名字。）

listening to: 蓝天 by 黄义达

from bad to worse...

i cannot stand myself anymore..i cannot control myself anymore..the more i tell myself not to,the more i will do it..it is like an illness..an illness tt cannot be cured..in this critical period i m not exercising any self-discipline at all..i wasn't like tt last time..similarly i didn't give myself so much pressure last time..maybe it is like tt..the more u force urself the more u won't do it..i m going mad already..i muz start doing wat i dun like to..i muz go back to my old self..the aim shld be better than tt..but let's start with a more achievable aim first before i fail again n fall into a deeper pit..

definitely..not..

things are not wat they appear to be..definitely..suddenly had a thought that every person will have 2 sides..1 the 热情 side and the other the 冷漠 side.it juz depends on how much time they show a certain side of them and when they show it.nobody can be happy all the time or unfeeling all the time.o ya it also depends on who the person is with.

let me count how many ppl have said tt i 唱歌很好听..haha the ego me again..

1)actually is all during jc life one then can rmb..last time one dun rmb liao..anyway cos i seldom sing in front of others last time..k the lst one i rmb is when i sang to my classmate 美人鱼 by 林俊杰, she said it was very nice..

2)when i went for the superstar audition,outside the room the ppl were listening to one another sing..when i sang a few of them said it was nice and soothing(cos of the nature of the song also actually)then one of them asked me to cont singing when i stopped cos she felt relaxed by it..i was really super touched by tt..cos its the first and only time i felt my voice was appreciated by someone..(anyway i didn't get into 2nd round..hehe)

3)the choir student conductor says i have a nice voice; my section leader also; the sops section leader and a few other choir members also..but i learnt tt they praise they praise many other ppl too and actually MANY other ppl have nicer voices than me..(a fact tt i took long enough to come to terms with..sigh)

4)another guy from choir say my singing is nice..but this one is different cos he's the person who won first in our sch's superstar competition..felt really honoured..it was during the auditions of the competition..he heard me sing 美人鱼 by 林俊杰 (yup..the same song again..i tink tt can become my 招牌歌曲 already)..he didn't noe me tt well tt time cos i was new in choir..but he came up to me n said tt i sang it quite nicely..felt like i was flying at tt moment..but of course i acted cool..hehe..

listening to: 不一样 by 陶吉吉

小说 - 第一回 - 他 (part 2)

真不知道我和他是有缘还是没缘。初次见面是在上初院的第二个星期，大家被分到各自的班级，而我就很幸运的被分到和他同一班。前几个星期并没有特别注意到他，只是觉得他算是班上长得蛮帅的一个男生。但是在看到他几次的举动后，发现他是一个超级绅士，超有风度的。这一点吸引了我，让我想更清楚他的为人，但是毕竟我是一个在女校读了四年书的人，所以不太敢和男生说话，也不太想和他们沟通。（应该可以说我是有点anti-social吧）

和他第一次的接触是当他再卖东西筹款时。哦对了忘了说原来他是在dsa（一个不看成绩而是看你在某方面的才能而让你进一所初院的program)下来到这所初院的，而且他是用choir进来的哦！那不是和爱唱歌的我志同道合！哈哈太巧了!anyway所以其实那时他是在卖食物来为合唱团筹款，因为我也有买，在机缘巧合之下我第一和他有眼神的交流。说这样可能肉麻了些，哈哈，因为其实也只不过是我第一次和他面对面地说话。他灿烂的微笑和诚恳的眼神至今还一直在我脑海里游荡着，怎么洗也洗不掉。那天我的心情是好了一整天。

之后好久都没有机会再和他讲话，但是只要在班上看到他都会感到高兴。有好几次也只是因为在升旗礼时能够看到他遥远的背影而感到超开心的，何况那是唯一可以让我专著地不怕被人发现地看着他，因为我很怕让他或别人发现我在看着他。

原来他也是打篮球的高手！怎么会有那么象漫画里男主角的男生？长得又帅又会打篮球又会唱歌又那么gentleman又笑容那么灿烂又那么调皮又性格那么好。（后面几条以后会慢慢讲解）我真的找不到他的缺点，或许因为我不够认识了解他，但是有很多男生的缺点在他身上都找不到，或者他用了他其它的优点把它们都转为优点。

和他的第二次接触是在清理教室的时候。那天是学校大扫除的日子，每班都必须将自己的课室清洗干净，而且是那种很彻底的清洗，必须拖地又擦窗的。我那湿布来抹白板，抹到一半他也拿了布来帮忙。我就这样和他一起齐心合力的把白板抹干净，中途也试着抹慢一点，好享受和他一起完成一项工作的快乐。这或许听起来有点夸张，只不过是同学之间一起清洗课室罢了，有必要那么认真和开心吗？但是这对我来说真的是很难得的机会。他抹完后我还在继续抹，他就和我说了一句：“不用抹那么干净啦！”。这句带点俏皮的话让我记到现在，而我也是之后才了解他说这句话正好反映了他不拘小节的个性。不拘小节在这里没有贬义，只是反映了他是一个很随性的人，不会太钻牛角尖。

listening to: 风筝 by 孙燕姿

深沉的热情

今天开始看《热情仲夏》，因为一开始就没有抱着太大的期望，所以就不会失望。有些部分真的事lame到爆，但是有些部分还是挺感人的。像第一集的最后一段，语嫣对夏芽坦白自己的假装，还有第二集里pp生病时累对夏芽的真情对待，这些部分让我感觉到《热情仲夏》不只是一部为了要让人笑而拍的戏而已，也是有点内涵的。这部戏的歌都不是开心的歌，如果没有看这部戏而只听原声带，你或许还会以为这是部伤心的戏呢！特别是片尾曲，信乐团的阿信所演唱的歌《累了》。但是我比较喜欢片头曲，小宇的《你要什么就说》。歌词是戏里男主角的心情写照。反复的听这首歌让我差点都忘了这是部开心的戏，只想着累与夏芽的爱情是有多么美丽的。歌里也有我喜欢的词。

《你要什么就说》

转过头 有点失落 你怎么消失在巷口
突然搞懂 我的生活 早习惯你在左右

少了你一秒像一分钟
现在会不会来不及 你却还在原地 等着我 比谁都坚定

我可以把童话变成日记 送给你

listening to: 你要什么就说 by 小宇

小说 - 第一回 - 他

这个世界上怎么可能还有比我更幸福的人？这段日子我每个星期都有六天可以看见他，其中有三四天能够名正言顺的专著的看着他一两个钟头。不论是他调皮捣蛋、严肃正经、害羞腼腆、还是累坏的样子，都吸引了我的注意力。在人群中，我总是很容易就找到他的身影，不只是因为他长得高，也是因为他有一种光芒，让我无法不注意到。能够认识他，知道世界上原来有这么棒的男生，真的是非常幸运的一件事。但是也因为这样，所以现在无论我遇到什么男生都会把他们跟他比较。而相比之下，他们当然显得逊色许多。

灵感来源：《恶作剧之吻》
湘琴对直树的一见钟情
他散发着一种光芒，让我在人群中很容易就找到他。

listening to: 我怀念的 by 孙燕姿

again and again...

i feel like shit..having so much to do n still coming to bother about my blog..but recently i started loving my blog..again that is..haha..but maybe it will go away very fast..i hope it does actually..

many things u might not wan them to keep on happening recurrently to u but u juz can't prevent urself from making the same mistakes because the human mind is weak..indeed it is..human beings might be strong in the physical sense..but they r very weak in the mind..anyway shldn't tok so philosophically..

i hate myself..i want to change..but i can't..no i muz believe i can!it's all in your mind!

p.s. i might start my 小说 thing again if i have time in the weekend..hehe..hope it lasts for at least 2 weeks..

listening to: love me again by 潘嘉丽

59..

i juz realised tt i only have 58 entries in this blog..which means this is my 59th!i really like the feeling of typing using the keyboard on a laptop..feels so nice!nicer than typing on a normal keyboard tt is..i feel like i m melting,i wish tt i can really melt..or even better evaporate,from this world and leave all the worries and troubles to the ppl left in this world..cos i m not so noble like those in the shows who wld wan to die later than their loved ones so tt all the sadness can be left to themselves..

listening to: 逆光 by 孙燕姿

欣赏 ≠ 喜欢

i finally understand what 齐悦 said to 源伊 in 恶魔在身边. she said "对不起，我把对你的迷恋当成喜欢，害你受到伤害." tt time i was tinking wat is the diff btw 迷恋 and 喜欢?its the same thing isn't it?but now i understand the diff.or at least i tink i do.

i had thought i liked him,n i had liked him for the past 1 and 3 months.he's really the nicest guy 1 can ever meet.but i guess i juz admire him.欣赏 that is.he's a total gentleman,he's very easy-going,he's can be serious when he needs to be,he has a lot of moral qualities and characteristics tt youths nowadays dun have. e.g. the imptance of enduring pain and hardwork to gain what u want to gain n gain more than others.he has passion for music and i bet u noe tt a serious guy is most attractive.i really can't find any fault in him except maybe tt he doesn't pass up work on time.but i dun blame him cos he's so into music he doesn't have much time for other things,n someone who's so free like me also can't finish work on time always.but he noes how to focus himself.during test period he is able to concentrate on studying n spend all his effort on it.

anyway i juz got to noe yesterday tt he has a girlfren.actually i sort of noe it already but yesterday someone told me the whole thing and the name of the girl and a brief account of how they met etc. tt girl's got the same passion as him n i guess tt's y they can get along well.i expected tt his girlfren wld be something along this line cos with his passion for music it wld be weird tt his girlfren dunno anything abt music.

anyway i wasn't jealous.i wasn't angry.i wasn't sad.n now i noe what is the diff btw 欣赏 and 喜欢. liking means u wld like to be with the person and spend all ur time with him or her.admiring means u tink tt he or she has lots of desirable qualities tt u urself wld like to have,but u dun need to be with person to feel happy.personally,i dun care even if he dun bother abt me or hate me or wat.as long as i can watch him without being realised and get to understand him more and find out more of his gd qualities,i m happy already.cos him disliking me doesn't mean i can't like him..i mean admire.. =P

listening to: 飘着 by 孙燕姿

i'm a genius!

it sure feels good to be able to settle something by yourself!haha..my mum always say 求人不如求己 and this i believe strongly too..why?the computer issue is the main one tt teaches me this truth..often i dunno abt computer stuff(cos i m an idiot at this aspect..n many others too) and incidentally my big bro is a pro at this(he's from computer engineering too but anyway my problems aren't related to so tecnical stuff)..and he dun like to be asked cos its a bother to him and his ans to my questions are often simple 3 or 4 word answers which totally do not ans my question anyway..

yup but anyway this time i solved it myself..i tried a way tt i thought impossible and it worked..muahaha..lucky i muz say..n internet is also a gd source for problem solving..so nxt time try to rely on yourself cos anyway the most reliable person is yourself!

listening to: 岚 by tank

吃饱饭没事做...

i shld be very busy now cos got common test nxt week..but i m here doing stupid things that i shldn't be doing..haha..this chingay pic is 2007's pic..n i was 1 of the ushers!i front of madarin hotel and one of the biggest seating sectors i tink..the first yr i watch chingay and live and in front of me so near..haha..but i muz say i m not quite interested in such stuff actually..quite boring to me watching the ppl wear weird costumes and dancing weird dances and looking at them enjoying themselves for dunno wat reason..i m juz not tt kind of high person..

common test and my health...

the jc2 common test is starting tml for me and i have been sick for these few days starting from chingay that time..sigh..feeling dizzy and everything..n yesterday i heard on 933 tt there is this get high concert at HCI and the auditions is this sat..right at the middle of my common test,brilliant-_-..but it sounds real cool and i juz wan to try anything and everything tt comes my way cos dun miss any chance n muz experience more mah..but if i tell my mum i bet she will get crazy and she wun allow anyway so no point trying to tell her the truth..n i myself ain't very crazy abt this thing cos like i've said,it's in the middle of my common test!mmm..anyway if i m going to go i have to lie to my mother which isn't very good..n one more thing..i dunno when my voice will recover to normal cos maybe on sat i will still be sick..so ok i will decide when it gets nearer then..

cool music...

my last post talked abt the song 《逆风》by 花园精灵 garden sisters n now its the song on my blog!so cool!cos i saw my cousin's blog and it had music on it so i went to try out iwebmusic and its real easy and cool!and i thought this song is so ulu tt the web shldn't have it but it has!miraculously!n it has 谢谢爱 too!cool!but i checked n it doesn't have 城外 by 蔡旻佑 sadly.but i shldn't be greedy n muz be satisfied with the current song.anyway i dun tink i will change this song too soon..so enjoy!

listening to: collide by howie day

why should i care?

《东方茱丽叶》的主题曲《逆风》，超好听的。因为《谢谢爱》认识“花园精灵”，因为《逆风》爱上她们。

黑夜逆风细雨 梦想热情和我

我不管别人的看法 却又想被人看见
你总是说出了盲点 有时候真是讨厌

每个选择路口 我就挑难的路走

listening to: 逆风 by 花园精灵

colour...

juz changed my blog colour..haha..maybe when i get sick of it i will change back again..

i m dying from all the work tt i have to do..n from my own expectations of myself n the laziness of myself...

listening to: 非你莫属 by 林依晨

superstar...

i m a superstar!in my own heart that is..but anyway really happy tt yesterday the 1st runner up last year came to told me tt i sang nice..though i nv even get to 2nd round..if there's still one person who tink my singing is nice,i will cont singing..

listening to: 累赘 by 孙燕姿

laptop...

this is the first time i m writing my entry on a laptop..cos my house new laptop juz came on tuesday!cool!but 1 not very cool thing is tt i need to copy all my stuff here and there's no media classic player to watch my shows on..=( i dunno how to install..tried various ways but some videos simply cannot load..n what is tt codec stuff?its frustrating ah!

listening to: 非你莫属 by 林依晨

i love my blog!

i m fickle-minded like mad and 三分钟热度.anyway shldn't be at the com now.shld be studying..argh!

listening to: five for fighting: 100 years

2007...sigh...

the many noises around the neighbourhood told me that its 2007 already.i checked my com clock,its exactly 12am on 1st jan of 2007.yup,1 day left to sch reopening n i still have loads of homework and sch work tt i haven't understood and i m still at the com watching 花样少年少女 and playing minesweeper.i went out of my house to look at the fireworks at i dunno where in singapore.but everytime national day or i dunno wat else day i can watch fireworks from outside my neighbour's house.tt's quite a gd position.singapore is real small so when i watch it its seems as if its real near my house.

i m 18 this yr!so fast!when u r 18 in singapore,u can drink alcohol,smoke watch M18 movies and call those charity lines without asking for parents' consent.its like a border when u approach adulthood.n i still feel like n think like a kid.n my english standard is difinitely stagnant at primary 4 level.this yr there's 'A's and i m like dead.

anyway really glad to have 曹格's songs accompanying me in this 2007's 1st day.i read an article recommending his new album 'superman' this morning so now i m listening to his new songs online.media has quite a big influence i muz say.his songs r quite nice n his voice is nice too.recommend u too..

listening to: 曹格's 保护你