小说 - 第一回 - 他

这个世界上怎么可能还有比我更幸福的人？这段日子我每个星期都有六天可以看见他，其中有三四天能够名正言顺的专著的看着他一两个钟头。不论是他调皮捣蛋、严肃正经、害羞腼腆、还是累坏的样子，都吸引了我的注意力。在人群中，我总是很容易就找到他的身影，不只是因为他长得高，也是因为他有一种光芒，让我无法不注意到。能够认识他，知道世界上原来有这么棒的男生，真的是非常幸运的一件事。但是也因为这样，所以现在无论我遇到什么男生都会把他们跟他比较。而相比之下，他们当然显得逊色许多。

灵感来源：《恶作剧之吻》
湘琴对直树的一见钟情
他散发着一种光芒，让我在人群中很容易就找到他。

listening to: 我怀念的 by 孙燕姿

again and again...

i feel like shit..having so much to do n still coming to bother about my blog..but recently i started loving my blog..again that is..haha..but maybe it will go away very fast..i hope it does actually..

many things u might not wan them to keep on happening recurrently to u but u juz can't prevent urself from making the same mistakes because the human mind is weak..indeed it is..human beings might be strong in the physical sense..but they r very weak in the mind..anyway shldn't tok so philosophically..

i hate myself..i want to change..but i can't..no i muz believe i can!it's all in your mind!

p.s. i might start my 小说 thing again if i have time in the weekend..hehe..hope it lasts for at least 2 weeks..

listening to: love me again by 潘嘉丽

59..

i juz realised tt i only have 58 entries in this blog..which means this is my 59th!i really like the feeling of typing using the keyboard on a laptop..feels so nice!nicer than typing on a normal keyboard tt is..i feel like i m melting,i wish tt i can really melt..or even better evaporate,from this world and leave all the worries and troubles to the ppl left in this world..cos i m not so noble like those in the shows who wld wan to die later than their loved ones so tt all the sadness can be left to themselves..

listening to: 逆光 by 孙燕姿

欣赏 ≠ 喜欢

i finally understand what 齐悦 said to 源伊 in 恶魔在身边. she said "对不起，我把对你的迷恋当成喜欢，害你受到伤害." tt time i was tinking wat is the diff btw 迷恋 and 喜欢?its the same thing isn't it?but now i understand the diff.or at least i tink i do.

i had thought i liked him,n i had liked him for the past 1 and 3 months.he's really the nicest guy 1 can ever meet.but i guess i juz admire him.欣赏 that is.he's a total gentleman,he's very easy-going,he's can be serious when he needs to be,he has a lot of moral qualities and characteristics tt youths nowadays dun have. e.g. the imptance of enduring pain and hardwork to gain what u want to gain n gain more than others.he has passion for music and i bet u noe tt a serious guy is most attractive.i really can't find any fault in him except maybe tt he doesn't pass up work on time.but i dun blame him cos he's so into music he doesn't have much time for other things,n someone who's so free like me also can't finish work on time always.but he noes how to focus himself.during test period he is able to concentrate on studying n spend all his effort on it.

anyway i juz got to noe yesterday tt he has a girlfren.actually i sort of noe it already but yesterday someone told me the whole thing and the name of the girl and a brief account of how they met etc. tt girl's got the same passion as him n i guess tt's y they can get along well.i expected tt his girlfren wld be something along this line cos with his passion for music it wld be weird tt his girlfren dunno anything abt music.

anyway i wasn't jealous.i wasn't angry.i wasn't sad.n now i noe what is the diff btw 欣赏 and 喜欢. liking means u wld like to be with the person and spend all ur time with him or her.admiring means u tink tt he or she has lots of desirable qualities tt u urself wld like to have,but u dun need to be with person to feel happy.personally,i dun care even if he dun bother abt me or hate me or wat.as long as i can watch him without being realised and get to understand him more and find out more of his gd qualities,i m happy already.cos him disliking me doesn't mean i can't like him..i mean admire.. =P

listening to: 飘着 by 孙燕姿

i'm a genius!

it sure feels good to be able to settle something by yourself!haha..my mum always say 求人不如求己 and this i believe strongly too..why?the computer issue is the main one tt teaches me this truth..often i dunno abt computer stuff(cos i m an idiot at this aspect..n many others too) and incidentally my big bro is a pro at this(he's from computer engineering too but anyway my problems aren't related to so tecnical stuff)..and he dun like to be asked cos its a bother to him and his ans to my questions are often simple 3 or 4 word answers which totally do not ans my question anyway..

yup but anyway this time i solved it myself..i tried a way tt i thought impossible and it worked..muahaha..lucky i muz say..n internet is also a gd source for problem solving..so nxt time try to rely on yourself cos anyway the most reliable person is yourself!

listening to: 岚 by tank

吃饱饭没事做...

i shld be very busy now cos got common test nxt week..but i m here doing stupid things that i shldn't be doing..haha..this chingay pic is 2007's pic..n i was 1 of the ushers!i front of madarin hotel and one of the biggest seating sectors i tink..the first yr i watch chingay and live and in front of me so near..haha..but i muz say i m not quite interested in such stuff actually..quite boring to me watching the ppl wear weird costumes and dancing weird dances and looking at them enjoying themselves for dunno wat reason..i m juz not tt kind of high person..