留得青山在 不怕没柴烧

nothing more to say. the title says it all. what's so sad or scary about data being lost? even if the data was saved over the years by me, and some cannot be found back anymore. and the bad thing is i don't even know what is lost. well, even then, what's so sad or scary about that? as long as i m still alive, i can work hard and try my best to recover them, one by one, slowly, over the months and years. those that cannot be found, cannot be found. it can serve as a lesson for me. to never forget how important they are. to never take them for granted. to never think they will always be there, waiting for me. it all seemed not so long ago that i still had them. people only treasure things when they are lost. just like paintings that only become famous when the artist is dead. the important thing is to learn from your mistake. and make sure they stick with u. as long as your heart can remember the pain of losing.

光合作用

绿叶需要温柔 阳光伸出援手
你温暖我不见天日的寂寞 

不知道为什么，觉得这句歌词很温暖，或许是因为搭配了<两个爸爸>这个温暖的戏，或许是因为最近很低落而这首歌适时的温暖了我的心。不知不觉写了好多次“温暖“这个字，不知不觉也温暖起来了 :D

Independent learning

Is the most inefficient but most effective way of learning, if that makes any sense at all. Currently i m two weeks into my job but I m still dozing off while reading things that I vaguely understand. N I got a feeling the dozing off thing will continue if this goes on, if my buddy at work keeps ignoring me. Need to constantly remind her of my presence. Hope I don't get fired before I even get my first salary -_-

Fish, tank, ocean

I was a reasonable sized fish in the small tank, but now I m like an anchovy in the ocean, ready to be eaten by all the other fishes here. Swimming around trying to ensure my survival. I wonder if I am suited for this kind of work and this level of responsibility and stress.

Sbs

I think I m getting sick building syndrome or something, just after 4 days of working in an enclosed building. Humans really cannot too much time in an enclosed space without windows, it will make ppl go mad, ok at least me. No wonder all the management has got rooms where u can see the outside scenery. It is a kind of benefit.

I need to breathe some fresh air. The smell of my new chair is making me sick. Maybe I shldnt have removed the wrapping after all.

Blogging during work is not right

I am seriously perplexed now. And disturbed. Y is my work buddy talking to another new guy so happily when they are not even related at work? Y is she behaving as if he is her buddy instead of me? I would not have been so disturbed if it wasn't that i have not been asking her questions in fear of interrupting her work, but seems like she's not busy at all -_-

So I guess I shld just shoot her all the questions and bug her to teach me to keep her occupied. But I don't feel like doing it, now tt I know what kind of person she is. Tho we have been told to ask questions while we can since the first day here. I guess I shld just be more independent and learn fast.
Ok now back to reading!

First mobile post

Just downloaded the blogger app on my phone and testing it now. Seems like the ratings for this app is not really gd. But anyway I won't have much use for this since typing on phone is not as fun as typing on keyboard. Anyway I just realised I have sort of abandoned my blog. Last year I have the second lowest number of posts, and now is April already but this is my first post of the year?!

Wanted to start writing again and spazz abt my new found interest in a Taiwan celebrity since a week ago, but haven't found any time, or I shld say I was too lazy to do so. With my new job starting next week, not sure if I will find time to do it, but if I do, I will reveal who the person is then. Till then, I will still be watching his shows and spazzing and laughing nonstop at this super hilarious drama he acted in 12 years ago XD