again i m in this 不生不死 cycle of endless suffering..wait, since it's a cycle i shouldn't be AGAIN in it, i have always been in it..talking nonsense now, but that's beyond the point..i m looking forward to my graduation day which is o-so-far..i dunno if i can survive this..i mean i know i will survive it, but i dun think i can come out unharmed..anyway let life go on..let nature take it's course..and let me go head-on into my suffering..