sending resumes = distributing flyers?

This is the attitude tt i realised i have to adopt, otherwise i might nv find a perm job for the rest of my life. just send, no matter whether they r looking for ppl, no matter whether they are interested in u, no matter whether u fit their requirements. just like there's no harm in giving out flyers to someone who look like they r not going to take it, cause if they dun it doesn't hurt u anyway, n if they do then it's an unexpected gain. if i send resumes and they dun reply me, i won't feel hurt anyway, and if they reply then it's a chance for me to end my endless search for jobs.

but the problem is sending resumes i need to write a 'cover letter' too. even tho i nv knew how to write a proper one, and engineering jobs mostly dun care abt this anyway, i still need to write something in the email tt i feel ok with. but sending resumes to jobs and companies tt i dun even know well, i dunno what to write.

hunger games

i m really a person who can get my mood affected very easily. when i watch shows i get absorbed into it so much i think of it whole day and feel sad for the whole day, or a few days. weirdly most shows which are impactful are sad and so i rmb feeling sad more than feeling happy. y are ppl so sadistic? always producing sad shows and stuff.

anyway the title doesn't mean tt i watched the show and was affected. i only 'read' the show. as in read from wikipedia. and then 'read' a bunch of other shows similar to it, like battle royale, the running man, the long walk. how come humans can come up with stories as sadistic as tt? these situations doesn't seem impossible after all, since humans have the ability to make possible everything they can think of. y must we kill each other and put ourselves in fear? isn't this world full of love tt we always see in ppl who volunteer for the needy and stuff. but this world is also full of cruelty, because some humans find twisted happiness from cruelty on others.

i m starting to feel like i dunno the world i m living in at all..