这世界太热闹，还好我们很安静...

nearing the end of the sem soon.just like my brother said,uni life passes like nobody's business.i bet some time later i will be stepping out to the society to work.i've been too slack this sem.my bed is too nice.my com is too fun.my mind is too blank.it is too dark outside(meaning now because there's a storm outside and a thunder just made my heart skip a beat).

i have been too lax on myself.seeing what others can achieve and have achieved,i m ashamed of myself.but i can't bear to put stress on myself.i cannot discipline myself.i realise i cannot continue this but i can't seem to put a step forward in the other(and correct) direction.i feel unworhty of my blog title.每个选择路口，我都挑容易的走。maybe it's high time i shld choose the difficult but better road.2 more days for me to catch up wat i m supposed to catch up.i know it is not enough but i can only do wat i can do in this short time.

anyway wat inspired me to write this entry is my jc fren.she is going to publish her book in nov(not mentioning the title here unless my blog pops up in the search engine and gets found out by some frens).not really sure about the exact contents but it is about herself in her troubled times.she's a malaysian but came to singapore to study jc for 2 years.she was an excellent student but faced some troubles in the course of searching self and finding what her aim in life was.but now she is ok already.

perhaps everyone will feel unsure about oneself at some point in life.just that it might come at any time and for me it hasn't even come yet because i m so immature and lax on myself.i don't like to face reality.i don't like change.i don't like to have to work hard for something in case i cannot get it and feel disappointed.i don't want to feel happy so that i will not feel sad.i m like the rose in the song."afraid of dying" and thus "never learns to live".

ok enough of emoing.it's time to start proper on my studies and face the "reality" and walk down the road which might not be the most difficult but is certainly filled with uncertainties...

listening to: 很安静 by 飞轮海

keep left...

Question: Is there any difference if we wear our earphones on the wrong side?(other than the unfittingness to our ears)

Answer: Yes!

weirdly,i wore it on the wrong side and did not feel it(maybe my ears are symmetrical or wat).i thought my phone cable(for connecting phone and earphones) is spoilt again because i keep on thinking the volume on the left side is much softer than the right.i could distinctly feel the difference from normal but cannot tell the cause.after 2 hours of listening,i realised i put them on the wrong sides.mm.so the moral of the story is,the left side of the earphones play music louder?that's wat i feel from this experience because when i put it back on the correct sides i felt perfectly normal like both sides are the same volume.maybe our ears(or my ears?) are accustomed to the louderness on the left already.another reason is the drums and bass stuff are more on the left side so it is louder there..mm..will go and search the net when i got time..

i am home...

i didn't know not having choir prac can make my days so much more relaxing..tho it's jus 1.5 prac..i wonder how my life will be like if i didn't join choir in the first place..maybe i will be much happier than i m now..but no use regretting now..wat's set is set and i cannot regret it since it's my own choice in the first place..

found out that the best 安眠药 is lecture notes.if u want to sleep on a bus but cannot do so,just bring out your lecture notes and u will be asleep before u can read finish the first sentence/equation on your notes..trust me man..this hasn't failed for me before..

listening to: I need you by 郭采洁

you had a bad day...

Last wed was not a good one and i had to wait 45 min for my bus and it was raining heavily..took some photos at the busstop while waiting..

wanted to capture the 2 birds hiding from the rain in a small hole of the mrt track.so cute!and unexpectedly caught the rain too..thought it was quite invisible from my phone camera..

i lost count of the number of such trucks passing by before my bus came..now i keep on thinking about my concrete lab when i see these trucks..and my lecturer lecturing animated about cement+water+fine aggregate+coarse aggregate..haha..now i feel an attachment to these trucks..looking at the drums rotate and thinking how the cement is mixing inside..

i had a bad day..but life is like that isn't it..there are good days and there are bad days..without bad days the good days won't feel good probably..

listening to: You are my angel by 张怀秋

累了，你就回家...

回到那一年的幸福时光...

been living too hectic life starting since..i dunno when..perhaps last friday?when i realised i m so lagging behind in my studies and i can afford no more playing of games (tho it didn't stop me from finding a new drama that i m crazy over now..seen from the title of this entry)..the average/mean/median (or watever u wan to call it) time that i have been slping for the past week is 4.30am,with maximum of 5.30am (and waking up at 6.30am..i might as well not slp)..but i survived..humans are much stronger than they think they are,as can be seen by me from this week..i have always wanted to write an entry for the past week to describe my 'non-human' life,but it has really been impossible to waste any second of my precious slping time so i had to force myself to not deviate from wat i m doing..i realise my attention span is quite short too..

now is another time i shldn't be writing this..but i m here..spent a good 2 hours jus now scanning through harry potter 5/6 (movie)..or else i could have slept by now..and jus spent 15 min on a qn and i realise i m wrong from the start..so had to come write this now..hope the next time i write here will be for a happy thing and hopefully about some drama that i had time to watch..

listening to: 回到原来 by 林忆莲

woha!

ok WOHA is actually the name of an architecture firm and winner of many architecture awards involving environmentally friendly stuff..but y wld i wan to put that as the title of my post?today i borrowed a book from my sch's library for the 1st time in my life in uni..never knew that the books were actually 1 level down from the entrance(the entrance is the 4th level-_-) ..i searched through books (with effort and aim) for the 1st time..really proud of myself..even used that chair thing to get to the highest shelf..funny thing is that the books i wan are always on the highest shelf..but i amazed myself a lot today..there are so many books and info in my sch library!but those critical to my course(engineering) won't probably be on the borrowable shelves..cos they wld be textbooks in the reference sections..

weirdly i have a fear for the reference section of the library that even i myself can't understand..maybe the fact that the books there cannot be borrowed shows their importance and it makes me respect them more..anyway that's not impt..

today i accomplished something that i've wanted to do since before hols..never put in effort until the deadline is near(this fri)..but was amazed at wat i cld actually do if i put effort into it..tho i still have some way to go cos i haven't got the results yet..can't find the way to it..but i believe i will be able to find it!

listening to: 亡命之徒 by 纵贯线