cos i can't stop thinking abt it..and i wan to stop..

watched SJ videos the whole of last night (i mean this morning) till 6am..which was a change from the recent craze i had over SHINee (and their Hello Baby)..but sadly i m not watching them happily..because i was trying to understand the Shanghai concert incident(s), which is VERY disheartening..it's because of this kind of incidents that u start to question humanity and u doubt 人之初，性本善 this kind of over-optimistic sayings..why are ppl doing things that do no one any good and hurts ppl who are not in the wrong?most imptly, it doesn't benefit them anyway and it ruins everyone's day (and weeks and months actually), including their own..

ok i m getting too engrossed again..spent the past half an hour looking at funny kyuhyun and zhoumi interactions in their baidu bar..of course, this kind of incidents show the bad side of ppl, but also the good side of others..患难见真情 or whatever u want to call it, it shows who really cares and who have the guts to care..we dun wan to criticise those who don't care, but it just makes those who care even more precious and lovable..no matter what, we can only hope that one day someone/heaven can knock some sense into ppl with none or are too blinded to see sense in themselves..when there's more ppl with sense than without,we can at least disintegrate those without so that at least their senseless is kept to themselves and not manifested in some nonsensical actions that destroy others' happiness..(not that we shld ruin our day just because of these ppl)

listening to: SYF 2007 songs

and the newspaper hits the door again..

i can't believe 2 consecutive entries on my blog are during 5++am and both inspired by the newspaper man..this shows how pathetic my life is..when can i stop this madness?when can i stop being like a bumble bee,working my heart out and seeing a point in it and totally not enjoying it too..maybe it will only come when i close my eyes..forever..

listening to: 有只老虎 by 华纳群星 on radio
nice song-_-

when u can hear the newspaper hitting against your door..

that means u either live a healthy life and so wake up very early, or your workplace is too far from your hse so u have to wake up early, or your job nature requires u to start early, or u are like me..u haven't slept..sry tt i m crapping but my mind is not in the right state now (not that it had ever been for the past 2 months).. i just suddenly thought of writing this entry when i heard the newspaper hitting against my door..not tt i have never heard it before..

i just had a 'power nap' (as ppl like to call it) and i m surprised that within that 15 min i cld dream a dream so complete in storyline that i can develop it into a horror movie already (yup it was sort of a nightmare)

listening to: 枫 by 周杰伦

elder sister is very pretty..

nice name for a song..haha..i always find korean titles and lyrics weird but maybe it's the prob of culture and translation..but nvm since i won't know wat they are singing unless i look at the lyrics of course..and the most impt thing to me is that the melody is nice..

anyway i have came here despite having LOADS of work literally piled up because i m currently backing up my files because my laptop caught a virus which i had ignored for the past 2 weeks..but i guess the sick shld always seek doctor as early as possible less it gets worse and irreparable..i have ignored the illness and not treated my laptop because it still can work and i really have no spare time to do all this backing up(i have LOADS of files) and reformatting and anyway i have no confidence that the virus will be gone if i reformat or reinstall or watever u call that..my recovery discs were announced faulty when i lent my fren last time..i rmb the last time i reformatted/reinstalled without using the discs and my files stayed intact but i can't rmb how i did that..so i have to backup my files now because they are super precious to me..especially my music files..i know work stuff shld come first..but whenever i think about losing files the thing that pain me the most is my music files..that happened a few years back and it was like my life had to start all over again..i can't emphasize the importance of music to me any more than this..

anyway i think this backup mission will need to continue tml so i cannot treat my laptop yet..sry lappy(new name for my laptop)..pls hold on one more day..

listening to (in my head): Noona is so pretty (Replay) by SHINee

happiness..행복

i know now is not the best time to write a blog entry..but i mus do so now to express my happiness!after so long of not coming here because of the hectic life (in fact i can safely say it's the busiest time i ever had in my whole life)..tml will be the concert and i will end my 日夜颠倒 life and the countless 睡过站 incidents..in fact for this past few weeks for every 5 returning-home buses that i take, i will 睡过站 for 4 of them..once i took to admiralty and had to quickly alight and cross the road and luckily i managed to take the last bus home..otherwise i will be stranded at some weird place (but luckily i recognised it a bit at least)(there was once when i woke up and saw big patches of grass and forest around and bus is like on those kind of road where it is straight and u can't see any buildings around and ahead) ..ok digressed too much..

why m i happy?other than the concert ending tml,the major factor is because,Pasta is up on time this week!(when for the past few weeks it hasn't been)..it is going to be the last episode i m so looking forward to a great episode though i will miss it a lot..the chef's teasing and their cute quarrels and reconciliation and the boss's gentle and heart-warming actions..

and why shldn't i be happy?because i still have a lab report due tml, a test on thurs which i dun have time to study because tml is fully choir's time..and NUMEROUS projects not yet done..i haven't been doing my part well this few weeks having choir as an excuse (not exactly excuse since it is true)..but after concert i will have to start on them proper..

for this past few weeks i have had lots of thoughts on mind and so much exploding (or imploding) emotions and things i wanted to come here to write, but i didn't have the energy at all to do it..i jus die on my bed whenever i reach home..maybe next time when i have time i can come back to write abt those tough times..but now, it shld be back to lab report-_-

listening to: Listen..to you by KyuHyun