song writing

i want to sing,but i don't want to be juz a singer.i want to compose songs.no experience before but i want to try.i do not noe how to play any musical instruments and so it is quite hard for me to compose a melody.anyway this is the first song lyrics i wrote.i wrote it today in abt 1 hour.not quite finished yet.

上地理课　老师叫我们要保护环境
因为大自然　已被我们破坏得不成人形
接着她发下　每人六十页的笔记
看着一张张纸　像看到树被砍下的情景
我的心一直都无法平静
世界上到底还有没有真理

副歌：
继续自私吧　大自然的存在不是为了让你滥用
继续伤害吧　人类迟早会亲手毁灭自己的家园
继续享受吧　享受着本来就不属于你的东西
继续哭泣吧　地球的哭声不知道你听不听得到

please give me some comments on my lyrics if u see this or if u know some techniques of writing songs,pls tell me!thx =)

你是我的假想敌...

yesterday tanya came to my sch to hold her concert,with 93.3 as the organiser again.it is the rarest thing tt a sch has 2 concerts in just 2 weeks.moreover,both r pop concerts which would make teenagers go mad n skip all their lessons to attend them.haha,i skipped my cca though i was the president.so bad rite,but i really wanted to watch the concert.
anyway tanya was from my sch so she was really happy tt she was able to come back to hold her concert.the most coincidental thing is that the host of the show,93.3's dj 林佩芬 was also from my sch!yay!haha,so we had this 'welcome back sch' concert n it was really great.tanya is really a great singer!
ok the main thing is that i did the most daring thing in my life!they were playing this game then they asked 3 ppl who knows how to sing 原点 to go onstage to sing it with tanya.so i noe the song n all my frens encouraged me to go.actually i would really like to go n i would haf went even without my frens telling me to,but it is really egoistic to go up myself without anyone saboing me cos its like i tink my voice very nice meh.haha,so anyway i really thank my frens for 'saboing' me.anyway i ambition is to be a singer.actually i shouldn't say ambition.its just a stupid dream which probably wouldn't realise.but i wouldn't give up any chance to sing.hehe.
so i went up onstage shakily.scary man.i couldn't rmb some lyrics of the song n after i spoke to the other person hu went up onstage,i realised she was a great fan of tanya n she had her new album n obviously onstage,tanya n 佩芬 could clearly see that i wasn't tt mad abt tanya.ok anyway the other person sang first(the other person didn't noe the song at all,kana saboed by frens) n then it was my turn.
i actually was tt close to them!one is a great local composer-singer,the other is the dj of the programme i listen to every nite!o man.its the greatest feeling.but actually there was no feeling.i was so excited i had no feeling at all.erm so i sang n then cos i didn't noe like when is stefanie sing when is tanya sing rite,so i sang all.then i saw tanya did an action like she was letting me sing,then everybody laughed lor.so embarrassing.i stupid lah.shouldn't haf 抢镜头.i really didn't noe it!
so embarrassing!!!

wooo...

better quickly write it down before i forget the feeling.yesterday slyvester(tt singapore idol 1st runner-up) came to my school to 办校园演唱会。this is organised by yes 93.3,my fav radio station.yay!丁智勇was the host.actually i thought all my schmates would go crazy when they see sly,cos my sch is girls' sch mah,then everybody like handsome guys(though i dun think sly is handsome lah,hehe).anyway i tink they were way to 镇定,i tink sly will think tt nobody in our sch like him lor.haha,actually not so serious lah.juz tt we were all like sitting obediently in the hall.dun even need prefects n teachers to say then we settle down so fast lor,more efficient than when we haf assembly in the hall,haha.
anyway sly is so thin!n he look so like 黄义达,which means tt he look like a girl.really lor,when he came out from backstage rite,i thot who's tt.haha,he juz haf tt 中性 look lah.anyway then when he sang 1 song rite,he came down to the audience,then all those in front on the left side went mad.(i realised tt those sitting on the left side were his fans,n those on the right r those like 不来白不来 ppl.cos its free mah,haha.n its in sch some more.another impt point is can skip cca if u haf it on fri.haha)i m 1 of the right side ppl,haha.i m in fact more interested in watching the 93.3 dj then him.anyway so he came down n shook hands with those sitting in the middle then came to the 2 sides also.as i m sitting on the extreme right n cos bean dun wan to move in,i was in the perfect position to shake his hands.haha.of course dun waste the gd chance lah.when he was coming here rite,i so nervous,dun dare to shake his hand,then i pulled pz's hand with me.then cos our hands so close rite,sly shook our hands together.funny lah.but he nv really shake lah.juz touch our hands briefly.
anyway the special part is tt he kind of like landed his hand on my head.i also dunno y lah.i tink accidentally lor.after he shook me n pz's hand,he like put his hand on my head.maybe he was resting his hands?haha,anyway at tt instant i like froze,but sadly i can't really rmb the feeling rite.haha,n this got passed around my frens saying tt sly's hand landed on my head.funny lah.
ok then he went to the center after tt n he sat down cross-legged beside a girl while he was singing.it was a love song of course,so it looked like he was singing to her.i mean i nv see anything cos as i said i sat on the extreme right.then its like everyone is like looking at the center of the hall.haha,i tink our vice principal is angry tt he did such a commotion-creating thing.haha.
after the concert he went to the family lounge to haf the signing thing lah.then all my frens egged me to go n get the dj's signature cos i said i wanted.at tt time i thot it was a crazy thing lor.cos sly was still backstage n i doubted tt 丁智勇 will sign.but when sly reached the family lounge my best fren said she can go to the hall with me to find the dj.i agreed.but we can't find him in the hall.he went back already.sigh.i regretted not being mad enough to go n get it earlier.it is such a gd chance n i missed it.sigh.nvm lah,nxt time maybe got chance again. =)

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still doing the weiqi presentation which we muz do in such a short time.juz wasted my time visiting my frens' blogs,n i now i m here wasting my time typing this entry here.haha.hope i can finish the presentation before i fall asleep.
anyway decided that every weekend the no. of maple hours should be cut down from 2 to 1.then every week can only watch 1 initial d cd.i muz keep to it!
jj's new album quite unique n nice!though at first the songs dun sound as nice as his past albums,but after listening for a while its nice after all!

frenship...

i m really happy tt we r going to change our seats finally next week.i don't like sitting next to her,simply because she is just so irritating.also,we r not fated to be frens because our characters juz cannot fit.we often disagree over small matters n i feel that our relationship is not really frenship.we r like using each other.
i often think about what will happen if we dun haf frens.actually,a fren is juz a person who shares your joy n sorrows.she can help u when u need help u will help her when she needs help.so frenship is really juz a relationship where both parties want to gain some benefits from the other party rite?i mean if we could,we would rather be alone.u might say tt u need frens n u wan frens because otherwise your life would be so dull n uninteresting,but tt is also trying benefit from the relationship rite?u r trying to make your life beautiful by having frens,so u r using ur frens to brighten up your life.
so true frenship should be where even though ur fren doesn't treat u well,u still regard her as a fren n u still care for her.tt means tt even ur enemies r ur frens!hope tt u can ponder over this entry i wrote...

用力看，就是盲

read an article from 读者 magazine which title was 用力看，就是盲。it talks about an online card trick which the writer tried playing.in this website,the writer played the game where there were 6 poker cards and the person is suppose to choose one and remember what is the card in his heart.then when the person press a button,one of the 6 cards will disappear n the new page displayed only 5 cards.n miraculously the card which the writer chose everytime disappears when he pressed the button.
when he read the answer on how the trick worked,he laughed at his own foolishness.tt's how he got his idea for the article.it appeared that the 6 cards which appeared on the 1st page is totally diff from the 5 cards which appeared on the 2nd page.however,due to the fact that the 11 poker cards were identical(in terms of numbers and shapes),the writer didn't realise it.it is also beacuse the writer didn't notice the cards other than the one he is supposed to remember.
this story tells us that when u concentrate on something too much,u will be blind to other things.in this fast-paced society,ppl r always busy with their own things n they become oblivious to others.they do not even bother about others n they often use the excuse that they r busy.actually i noe that they r truly busy,but r they really so busy that they cannot care about anything other than their own work?they do things only because there r some benefits they can get.they don't care about things that they cannot gain anything from.this is the attitude most ppl haf these days.i m really afraid that this world will become devoid of love one day.it is really frightening.its worse than independence day.
i read this article quite long ago so y m i saying this now?because today i got an experience of it.i was going to a cca meeting outside sch this afternoon.i was on a bus when my fren who was also going to the meeting boarded the bus too.i didn't call out to her because i wasn't really close to her.she sat quite near me n she could see me easily in our positions.i mean if she juz raise her head up she will see me.i wasn't really keen on letting her notice me cos as i said we were not close n it will be very uncomfortable if we travel to the meeting place together without toking to each other.so we alighted together at the same stop to go to the opposite side to change bus.i was behind her always and i avoided her intentionally(anyway it was really fun doing that.i felt like a PI).the bus came n again we boarded the bus together without her noticing me.i mean i still was behind her but she should haf seen me if she was looking at all because when we were waiting for the bus to stop we were so near to each other.so we arrived at the meeting place and finally at the traffic light she saw me.tt's because i had to alight the bus before she does and because of that,when i waited at the traffic light she was beside me.
ok,i feel "perverted" for trying to let her not notice me,n she feels so too(i told her about it later).but i m typing all these juz to say that this world is beautiful n it doesn't juz consist of u.it consists of so many other living things which is worth noticing.if u juz let yourself rest for some moments n appreciate the world n nature,u will feel that the world is such a great place.stop concentrating only on your own things.

priorities in life...

i m a student.this is a fact i know n i accept.i m sec 4 now and i should concentrate on my work so that i can get gd results for o levels.i should know my priority and manage my time well.all these r things tt r expected of me but not i want to do.today during cca we discussed about knowing your priorities and doing them first.so we shared about our priorities.when it was my turn i did really know what to say but in the end i said that i want to find my goal in life.
i mean i still don't know what i want to be when i grow up.i have no interests except sleeping and listening to and singing songs.i can't possibly be a singer because i m not suitable to be one definitely.i m ugly n i do not have a good voice.i treat singing as a fun thing n something for relieving stress.sometimes i also feel that peer pressure is very heavy on me.people won't expect a person like me to become a singer.i mean there is no part in me which is like a singer.their doubt when i say i want to become a singer makes me feel that my "in-the-air sandcastle" can nv be built.
ok,so i said my priority in life is finding my goal.to do that i need to find my interest first.n my interest is definitely not in studying.often i feel that studying is not really impt.i mean i m still feeling that way.all my frens and teachers n vice principals n principal sound as if if i can't get gd results in o level i will die for sure.i mean studying n tests n exams r juz a small part of our life rite?i feel as if my frens' lives are just studying for tests n exams.they r simply placing too much emphasis on them.many times they will say "die lah,sure fail one" after a test.(almost all who say this kind of thing will NOT fail,they juz like to say that,for a reason i do not know)so i ask them "y will u die if u fail this test?i mean even if u fail o levels so what?u won't die rite?unless u commit suicide or your parents kill u."they would say they can't get a gd job in future n i would say why not.if u have a skill u would still become an expertise in your area of work rite?n anyway even if u nv get a gd job u wouldn't die rite?i mean if u r willing to work,u will nv die!行行出状元,if u can be an expert road sweeper,u r still of great use to the society n u can still be alive.that is what i can promise u.

梦想起飞

i watched 梦想起飞 juz now. i m starting to like airplanes, and also the handsome pilots!haha. during dec last yr and jan this yr, i watched the hong kong drama serial 冲上云霄 which is also about pilots and airplanes and all those stuff. it is the nicest hk drama i've ever watched! not only are the pilots handsome and the air stewardess beautiful, the plot is also very nice and sad and funny. 梦想起飞 is the 1st japan drama serial i watch seriously, if i remember correctly. its also very funny and full of meaningful stuff. being a pilot is really hard! air stewardess too, but i guess no job is easy. hope 木村拓哉 will have a successful life ahead being a pilot!(btw he's the male lead in 梦想起飞)

money matters...

i'd better be more organised now that i m the treasurer of my cca, not like i'd want to be one. they could have given me any post other than the treasurer and i will not complain at all. y muz they put my disorganised character to test? r they trying to challenge me? or r they simply blind to my character? i m the worst choice in the world for a treasurer n they picked me. either they chose me because they hate me or nobody wanted the job. another possibility is that they r trying to lose all the cca funds. -_-

go ahead!!!

i guess i m still new to blogger and so i don't really know how to use it.i didn't u can have many blogs with 1 account and so i unknowingly published my 2 entries on 2 diff blogs.then i deleted the 1st blog and the 2nd blog with a long long entry also lost the entry.so now i will have to rewrite the long long entry again...
ok,let's shorten it.today when i was on the bus on the way back home,i slept as i was too tired.then when the bus reached the stop before mine,the stranger who sat beside me woke me up.apparently she was alighting the bus at that stop and before she stood up she patted me on the shoulder and asked if i have missed my stop.i was like shocked and puzzled.i mean how common is it tt a stranger wake u up on a bus and ask whether u have missed your stop?the coincidental part is that she woke me up just before my stop.how strange can it get?
would u wake a stranger up on a bus and risk getting scolded by the person because he/she was going to alight at the last stop?this made me thought of a lesson i learnt in a camp.i learnt that it the thing u r going to do is a good thing,go ahead n do it.do not hesistate too much because when u think too much about the possible consequences of the action,u would tend to give up doing it.most people always think of the negative side of the situation and thus fearing that the negative outcome will really happen,they don't do it.
i m a typical example.i have never gave up my bus or mrt seat before to those who need it more than i do.that is because sometimes i carry a big heavy back n when u sit on the seat nearer to the window and the bus is crowded,it is very hard to get out n give ur seat to someone else.it might cause more inconvenience to people.sometimes i m also afraid that people will feel that i look down on them by giving them my seat.they might think that they need the seat n so might feel insulted when i give up my seat to them.all these may just be my excuses for not wanting to leave the comfortable position on the chair,but i really don't know.
trust me,don't think too much when u r doing a good deed.just go ahead n do it!