the battle of humans and computers..

programming,a word which was quite scary to me before i even took it..maybe because of all the stuff i heard from my frens and from general response..ppl spend hours and days battling with the computer,which translated into more understandable words, actually means that ppl try to write programs which the compiler is willing to compile,and pray hard that the output is correct..the number of errors that pop up might intimidate u,but fear not..because u will have to get it right in the end lest u wan to fail this module..errors are there for u to correct,whether u wan to correct them or not..and if u do not wan to,u wun get the desired results..ok when did this post start to become philosophical..

nothing is impossible..

and the thing which seems impossible to happen might happen some day..not the day when pigs fly,but on the day that u have waited so long that u have forgotten what it means to have a miracle happen..what u wish to happen might not happen always(often not actually)..but at a time that u least expect it,the chance pops up in front of u out of nowhere and catch u as a TOTAL surprise..

i really never imagined in my entire life to be in an acapella group,even if it is only temporary and for one song..and me being the lead?that is something i never dreamt of in my wildest dreams..not exaggerating in the mildest extent..i took in appearance,but underneath i m like shouting in my heart "m i dreaming?or m i dreaming?can someone hit me please?"..the best thing is that it came to me after i thought i have lost all hope of being in it because there was this other much much better singer n she was like 'in' without having to audition for it..

and i muz say i m quite lucky..i'd always have a chance to be near someone i like..and he is like him..they are quite alike actually..serious when at work and so confident and unproud and sincere and passionate in what they are doing..yet also cheeky at times and funny and lame and smiley and friendly to everyone..and they have another similarity which is that they both have girlfrens(not like i ever imagine to be with them..i now understand that what i feel is 崇拜)..and both girlfrens are choir related too..nice coincidence huh..sometimes i think i m pretending that he is him,not that they are very different anyway..o ya another similarity is that both are very thin..VERY..

listening to: 不敢当 by 梁静茹

没有理所当然，也没有如果..

世界上被当成理所当然的东西总有一天会消失，即使是暂时的也好，就是为了吓吓把它当成理所当然的人，让他们开始懂得珍惜，即使这个珍惜也只是短暂的。

世界上没有如果，一切只有一次机会，人们也没有办法知道如果做了另一个选择会有怎样的结果。那么人们是应该随心所欲，大胆尝试并接受失败，或是应该保守的做出理智的选择呢？害怕受伤就没办法得到理想的成果，但害怕受伤是人的本能反应，难道是人的错吗？

listening to: 没有如果 by 梁静茹

back to school..

the 4th day back to school..not much this week because tutorial hasn't started..i only have 1 lecture from 5-6 today..afraid that i will be habited to this slackness..really afraid of the things that are going to come this sem..weird labs and weird lab timings too..heard how my frens died last month because of the programming methodology labs last sem..me having to time to write a blog entry now already shows how slack i m now..inertia is really true fact not only applicable to objects but to humans too..an added rule is that much more force is needed to start than to stop..haha

listening to: 龙战骑士 by 周杰伦

back in hall..

the 2nd and last time moving into hall..i m already starting to staying in hall..nxt time when i dun stay i will have to get up early for 8am lessons..and squeeze with ppl in buses..and i need to waste time on transport..and i dun get more attention from my parents(because if i m in hall they will care for me more when i go home during weekends..and my brother is better to me too..haha)..i cannot do a lot of things with my hall frens..i cannot wish them happy birthday at their rooms at 12am and lie on their beds and play with their soft toys..i cannot stay up late without being afraid of getting caught by my parents..

幸福的抉择 I do?

或许是命运要我看到这部戏，之前我有说到一部新戏《败犬女王》，主题曲是梁静茹的新歌《没有如果》。在搜寻梁静茹的新专辑时发现没有这首歌，新专辑叫《幸福的抉择I do?》，主打歌是《属于》。然后想下载《败犬女王》的桌布时又发现一部叫做《幸福的抉择I do?》的戏。这部戏的桌布中有一男一女，不论是穿着便装或是结婚礼服都一脸幸福的样子，让我的心不禁特别温暖。好奇之下去看了这部戏，发现是戏的主题曲就是《属于》，也是部大牌众多的大戏。到底这部戏是在说什么呢，我到现在这一刻还是在不断思索，并不停找到的新的答案。

属于

我堅持的 都值得堅持嗎 我所相信的 就是真的嗎
如果我敢追求 我就敢擁有嗎 而如果都算了 不要呢
或許吧 或許我永遠都不會遇見他
或許吧 或許我太天真了吧

屬於我的昨天之前的結局　我決定我的決定
屬於我的明天之後的憧憬　我迷信我的迷信
屬於我們點點滴滴的傷心　我們要各自忘記
屬於我們閃閃發亮的愛情　我們再一起努力

屬於風的 那就去飛翔吧 屬於海洋的 那就洶湧吧
屬於我們的愛 該來的就來吧 為什麼不敢呢 不要呢
是他吧 命中早就注定了的那個他
是他吧 他原來就在這裡啊

这部戏的主题毫无疑问的，是爱。

讲的是年轻人对爱的憧憬。在5年前的一个晚上因为遇到了一个让自己的生命忽然有曙光的人，而毫不犹豫的爱上，并天天为对方祈祷，即使根本不知道会不会再遇到那个人。

讲的是年轻人对爱的冲动。因为爱就可舍弃其他的一切，因为爱就可以不管别人的目光和谴责，因为爱就有生存下去的力量和勇气。

讲的是年轻人对婚姻的轻视。爱和相处是不一样的，婚姻是需要经营的，爱能排除一切困难，但那只是当双方都能把口中所说的爱凭着自己的毅力去实践出来。爱能建立信任，但这种信任也不是完全的，而是必须两个人小心维持的。

讲的是一个孩子对家的渴望和对长辈的不信任。有时家长对孩子的爱是不易被孩子察觉的，只有在历经一连串困难后，孩子才会发现对自己不离不弃的只有父母。

讲的是两个母亲对孩子两种不同的爱。人们对爱的定义都不一样，当爱的方式不被认同时，心痛却也没有办法改变事实，只是希望时间能够证明一切，并在过程中让孩子成长成为真正能够自己独立的人。

讲的是爱情的存在。即使必须历经挫折才能发现爱，但如果最后能够找到一个你真正爱的人，也是真正爱你的人，并且找到了彼此相处的方式，那么一切都是值得的。回头看，也许回忆并不尽是美好的事情，但也会别有一番滋味，并更懂得珍惜当下所拥有的幸福。

listening to: 属于 by 梁静茹

没有如果的败犬女王..

昨天首播的《败犬女王》，因为好奇而看了一点，结果fast forward 到主题曲那边后就重复不知道听了多少遍，直到现在还是在播放。梁静茹唱的《没有如果》，感觉好像很符合这部戏。虽然我现在才不到20岁（今年6月才到），但是感觉好像很能了解败犬的心理（败犬的意思可以去google一下）。听了歌就能感觉到戏里的败犬希望有个男人能够了解她的感受。败犬也是希望能够被爱的，只是找不到这样的人罢了。她也希望能够有个不管“如果”的人去爱她，如果有这样的人，她会不顾一切地去爱他。听了就又想哭的感觉。

没有如果

如果我说 爱我没有如果 错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果 拿来当借口 那是不是有一点弱
如果我说 爱我没有如果 真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么 快牵起我的手

有人说 世界上最遥远的距离不是 生与死
而是我就站在你面前 你却不知道 我爱你
我常说 如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到 不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天

listening to: 没有如果 by 梁静茹

happy new year pull your ear!

this year's first post is on the first day of the year!though the first day is ending soon..long time no come..have been busy studying during term time and busy watching dramas/playing games during the holidays to be diligent enough to post something on my blog..but this new year has been quite happening..

i can remember myself writing blog entries in the past few years during those times when ppl are counting down to new years and christmases,as though the events had nothing to do with me at all and that they are just as normal as any day on the calender to me..however this new year i was at my fren's house,staying up for the whole night and playing bridge/pictionary/mahjong..we ate steamboat for dinner,and realising we have too much food left,we ate steamboat again at 5am on 01/01/2009..cool ah..o ya and then after that we started watching 流星花园 which was so popular when we were like primary 6(we are in uni now by the way)..nice way to celebrate new year ah..