Monday, September 28, 2009

i m feeling bad..

this is the worst holidays i've ever had.nothing done(actually some done,i wld say 20% maybe).much more to be done.20 things to do*,and if i could have done one to 100%(perfection),i didn't.instead i have 20 things each done 1%(on the average.the lowest wld be 0% and the highest wld be 40%?)can it be worse i ask myself?no i can't think of it worse,because it was the least i cld have done.i admit that i wasted my hols AGAIN within expectations(tho my last 2 days were quite 'fruitful',that is compared to the previous 7 days),but the amt of work was not to be kidded with.and now i have no more hols to waste.y i m writing this now when i've got more impt things at hand is because..I SIMPLY HAVE TO RECORD THIS DISGUSTING MOMENT DOWN!!!ok i m in uni year 2 sem 1 now,mid sem break ended 42 minutes ago and the worst is coming soon.watch out for more!

*20 is a figurative number

Sunday, September 06, 2009

借着铅笔说爱你...

我不想因为喜欢你而逃避你,但又没有办法不这样做。我很想坦然的面对你,我很想告诉你我从很早的时候就喜欢你了,但是我却没有勇气,也没有信心。即使我们只维持在现在的朋友关系,我也没有办法用真实的自己去面对你,因为真实的我是喜欢你的,但在你面前我却必须把它隐藏得没有人会发现,包括你在内。我想不去在乎,也有很多时候我是可以做到的,但你又会出现,让我不能无视你的存在。我不想恨你,但又没办法控制自己。或许这是一种自我保护的反射动作吧,我不想受伤...

it's the rose afraid of dying, that never learns to live...

listening to: ただ、君を愛してる movie ost