thank you teacher, let's go to school to eat pasta..

that's a super random title that i thought of that is supposed to link 4 shows that 孔孝真 acted in..still dunno how to spell her korean name so not writing it..it's really funny that i m so interested in korean shows now since i have hated them since all those whiny and cryey soap dramas showed in singapore tv last time..dun understand why they talk so slowly and cry every 10 min..and their fate is always sad and etc etc..

but i guess 命运 is really strange and sometimes everything is jus by coincidence (reminds me of the scene in 'curious case of benjamin button' where the female lead won't have broken her leg if not for a series of 'coincidences')..i got to know 'sorry sorry' because i watch so many taiwan shows and they are always dancing and singing that for a period of time..but at that time i still dunno abt super junior (and watched their performance on 金曲奖without much appreciation,jus thought that 'wow,so tt is the original sorry sorry dance that so many taiwanese are dancing')..only abt 7/8 months later when i saw my fren's video of them dancing that + super junior m on 娱乐百分百 (at that time i watched it for 小猪and 小鬼) that i started to know there is such a group which exists..even then,i didn't start to like them because i thought 'ok so this is a bunch of guys who can sing and dance',and the only songs i know from them then were sorry sorry and super girl..then while browsing related videos i realised the nice song which i heard on 933 1 year ago was sang by them (that is 迷)..i always thought it was a song by 棒棒堂 and thought 'ok this song is nicer than their previous songs and their voices seem to be nicer in this song'..until i saw the mv and realised i had been wrong for 1 year..

that was how i started to like super junior (if i never rmb wrongly,cos i tink the starting of the process of liking an artiste,or a grp of artistes in this case,is really not so clearly definable)..i watched their 娱乐百分百episode again and realised how they can dance well and ryeowook and kyuhyun can sing so well too (with kyuhyun's super 标准华语)..i started to watch their mvs and know their songs and know them through the numerous variety shows..

ok i tink this is too long and so i shld quickly proceed to the main thing..

and then i got to hear kyuhyun's individual song "listen..to you" on youtube which is super nice and realised it's the theme song for the show "pasta"..i wanted to watch the front part of the episode to listen to the song but realised korean shows aren't like singapore and taiwanese shows where the theme songs will play at the starting and ending of the show..and that's how i started watching the show and realised it's not like the typical korean show that i thought of..it's romantic and funny and light-hearted which is good for me..

and then i wanted to see what other shows the 2 leads acted in before,and then found out the male lead was in coffee prince which i didn't watch last time when it showed in singapore (though it had yoon eun hye whom i liked because of goong)..and the female lead acted in various shows with various male korean actors whom i know (which is quite few)..'thank you' with 张赫..the teacher show with the guy male lead in coffee prince.."sang doo,go to school" (a direct translation from chinese which i dunno is correct or not) with Rain!my god,he looked so cute in the show with the little girl as her daughter..i like his cute side rather than his manly side..

anyway it is 4am now and i haven't done any homework and so i shldn't be here..that's all for the korean drama craze now..shall cont when i have time..

at the speed of light..

ok actually it's not so exaggerating but if it is compared to my previous working speed (concept of "relativity" -_-),it's really quite fast..though i m still late by 1hour50min in submitting my homework..at least i wrote something..when you are desperate,anything is good enough..and when u are not good at something,the less you expect yourself to do well and so the more often u will do it wrong but u forgive yourself easily too..ok i m not talking a lot of sense but tt's just how i feel now..need to start LEARNING THE NOTES of my choir songs which i need to MEMORISE by tml..dunno how i m going to do it..maybe jus start having mental preparations of being scolded tml bah..

listening to: 爱上爱的味道 by 张韶涵

习惯就好..

the 3rd week of sch is going to start..it seems like it has become a habit for me to come here on a sunday night..real sch work only starts this week but i already feel like i m going to die under the work..it is actually better than last sem(i tink)..i think last sem was stressful and ruined by my hydraulics module(which killed a lot of other students too)..i was constantly anxious because i cannot understand a thing at lecture and did not do a single tutorial and had to copy all my assignments from others..for this sem,at least it is something related to environment but i think it is cause the hard calculations and thinking part haven't come in yet..

it feels so hard to live in this society..everyone is asking us to think and analyse things CRITICALLY and have a mind of your own and look at things from various points of view and be innovative with problem-solving etc..i hate all these big words..it's not like i dun wan to think critically and come up with creative solutions but i just can't..i simply hate the feeling of killing my brain cells..and being a little perfectionistic(in some areas only) doesn't help at all..i feel like killing myself..

listening to: some weird but nice song by 王菲 on the radio

so wo noon ma leh bah?!

today i want to start my learning of korean finally..had been thinking of it for so long but haven't started..i tink i need something like '15 min of korean a day' so that i can start learning it..anyway it takes time to remember since i m not using it..just like my jap..forgotten 99% of it including how to write some katakanas..spending 4 years on it and getting a JLPT 3 (barely passed) doesn't mean anything at all..o ya anyway the title is the romanisation by me of girls' generation's 'genie'..i tink the hardest thing abt learning korean,like 韩庚 said,wld be the pronunciation..but let's jiayou and start my korean lesson now before i go slp!jiayou!(i shall go and learn how to say jiayou in korean too!)

listening to: Genie by Girls' Generation

fast one then..

i need to wake up 6.30 for lessons tml and i shldn't be here now cos any sec my mum might wake up and scold me..but i need to write down something here..only 1 week after the day i parted SJ videos unwillingly with 'It's you' as the finale song and my friends might be doing that dance..cool..i myself wld like to learn it and be part of their grp but i know it wld be better for me to just watch them..dancing isn't for me..

i spent the past 5 hours reading about so many things related to the kpop music industry that i m like super saturated now with those stuff..learning abt the most influential kpop artistes of the past decade and dbsk and cassiopeia (and them in the world record of largest fanclub) and their sad plight and SM artistes being oppressed and Xiah and Eunhyuk being childhood best friends and how young they were when they auditioned and how young they were when they started preparing to become an artiste and how long korean companies (or only SM?) spend to train their artistes (now i know why they are so talented) and the protest against SNSD and having a forum dedicated towards anti-ing SNSD..my god..the korean pop scene is much more complicated than i think..maybe it wld have been better if i stuck to chinese songs but there's no turning back now since i already know SuJu and it is quite impossible to get them out of my head now..just hope that i dun go and start to like DBSK too..that wld be too much on my hands (and in my head,and in my computer too)..

listening to: Sorry Sorry Answer by Super Junior

the oatmeal

www.theoatmeal.com

the newspapers introduced this website like last last week and i thought i shld go and have a look but only went there today.super funny author with great illustration skills and a good sense of humour.my favs are the printer one and the customer service one.go and see it.it will make u laugh like mad.

the blog entry not written on a blog..

this is the 1st time i write a blog entry while i dun have a com with me.'how do u do tt' u ask.easy.write on paper and 'transfer' the words to your blog.maybe it's cos i want to use my new pen.maybe it's cos i m feeling bored now.maybe it's cos i m full of feelins now.or maybe it's a combi of all.

i m in a traffic jam now.very common in s'pore.any time spent doing nothing is time wasted.if tt's the definition,i wasted half of my time this past week.FYI,the 1st week of sch just ended but it felt so long.no real work has started,unless u consider choir stuff which is even more stressful than sch work to me.

pardon me,i suddenly have the idea to scan this page and put it as a pic on this entry to show u how horrible my handwriting is.i might not be able to recognise it myself.(editor's note:i can recognise it i realise)

random thoughts (not that my previous words weren't random)

-i wan to learn korean!and revise my jap too.or i wld say relearn.cos basically i forgot EVERYTHING.

-i feel like slping cos we are still in the jam.

-i pity my father cos he's sick but still has to tolerate this jam.

-i tink it's the 1st time i write abt my father in my blog entry.(editor's note:makes me wonder when my mum will appear)

-i desperately want to know how 韩庚's case has gone.i hope he can stay in SJ and just have a new contract but if it's impossible,i wish him well in the future.but i dun think i will look at SJ in the same way anymore.i wun know who to look at during their performances and MVs.

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i ended here because there wasn't enough space.typing this out was like practising my typing skills.not really thinking.anyway,off to learn korean!(tho i shldn't be doing that at this time)

listening to (in my head): the 2nd line in U by Super Junior, which is 韩庚's line,which is (when romanised by me never really knowing the correct pronunciation), "kuroke chyo tapojima, don wan ai game i mu, ajishi jya ah geh so"

rokkugo rokkugo rokkugo malehba!

the tune is stuck in my head and meanwhile i m still 'discovering' past super junior videos which are super funny like the goong t parody by super junior t..and the coffee prince one (tho i didn't watch the drama in the first place)..how can they be so cute and handsome and cool and funny and lame and childish and professional (when they sing and dance) and mischievous at the same time?i dun tink i can get tired of them unless i watch all of their videos thru these years (from 2005 till now) which is seriously A LOT..they do almost everything..sing,dance,act,host in tv and radio,do lame stuff in variety shows..i often think to myself,what can they not do?that is the power of 13 i guess..being the biggest group in korea (i tink,and also biggest in the world?),every person has something u will like him for..

but this is going nowhere,i shldn't be here now..let me indulge myself some more before the real sch work comes in..and history repeats itself again..

listening to: Rokkugo! by Super Junior T

cause i can't stop thinking bout u girl...

1st day of sch ended officially and it doesn't feel like the first day though it was quite slack.choir totally ruined it.i don't know why i keep on plunging myself into troubled waters.but there's no regretting now.just want to write some resolutions here.not exactly new year resolutions,but new sem resolutions.

since i can't stop thinking about them (super junior),i need to control myself and to write it down here so that i can slap myself if i dun do it.for this sem,i shall only watch SuJu videos on weekends and all other times shld be spent doing constructive things like doing work or practising choir songs.however,i can listen to one SuJu song on the com everyday so that i dun go mad thinking abt them.ok set.

listening to: U by Super Junior

neorago..

in 7 hours' time i will be having my first lecture of the sem(and of the year also of course).i m not prepared at all.not only mentally but also physically.not sure whether "physically" is the correct word to use but what i mean is that i haven't printed my lecture notes and i haven't touched my choir scores and i don't even know what my modules are about.and all i can think abt now is super junior.i need to look at their mvs properly once before sch starts and i have no time to do what i wan to do.i chose happiness and neorago(it's you).the first because of the happy mood of the song and the 2nd because of the catchiness of it and i sang it in karaoke today!super excited when i saw the mv on the big screen of the lobby of the ktv and the music playing loudly.can't control myself to not shake with the rhythm of it..

ok so let's end this "short" and wasteful holidays with the perfect thing..

listening to: Neorago (It's You) by Super Junior

it's gotta be me..

the 4th post in 3 days.i think i m like going mad or something.everytime i like something i go into a crazy mode when i can't get it off my mind and whatever i do it will stay with me.most of the time it is dramas.the more mad ones i can rmb are like 仙剑奇侠传 and 恶作剧之吻。i can rmb thinking abt them thru lessons and immersing myself in the mood of that particular episode i stopped at(and most of the time it is the sad moods that affect me).so i will be sad like for the whole day.i rmb crying on a bus while listening to 仙剑奇侠传 ost cos i was totally immersed in the scenes while listening to the familiar background music.looks totally like an idiot to others and ppl might think i jus broke up with my boyfren or something.

ok i realised i haven't gone to the main topic after that long intro.ok,so the main topic is...

I AM IN LOVE WITH 韩庚 now!i feel like i m going bonkas or something.and it's not gd because sch is going to reopen in 1 week's time and i have no time to love him if i wan to not fail my next exams.jus now i was shopping with my fren and i keep on imagining the clothes being worn by him,thinking "ok this suits him..mmm..this doesn't..."is this a sign of going bonkas?anyway i need to end this soon so that i can go and bathe so that i can eat my dinner so that i can quickly come and spam on his videos again because time is precious..not much time left for this week..i need to see him so that i won't go bonkas..but after i see more of him i get bonkas more easily..shit this is like a vicious cycle..ok i shld stop crapping..

listening to(in my head): 迷(me) by Super Junior M

o my superman..

2 entries in 1 day.that's a first for me.the spamming of super junior videos continue and i feel that i won't want to go back to sch anymore after all these slackness.there's one saying that is so true and i understand but i still cannot implement it.

Work hard, play hard.

for now i can only fulfill the "play hard" part.ok to say the truth,that is not something for me to learn.it was born in me.but working hard without thinking about playing is impossible for me.but i guess i shldn't be so pessimistic about this and i shld not tell myself that i cannot do it.because of that "what u tell yourself is what u will do" thing.so i shld think positively and say "i can work hard and concentrate on everything i do!"

ok enough of big talks and back to spamming videos.haha.so much for the big talk.

o my super girl..

shit!now my next week is like filled except for tml and tues.i m spamming super junior m (or rather,韩庚) right now with 3 windows(numerous tabs each) of videos and any wrong move will make all of them to "not respond" and everything will close and the videos which i have put here for dunno how many hours to load(due to my slow internet)..i was intending to spam sjm videos for the next 2 days,but appointments keep on popping up out of nowhere today..and suddenly i have no more time left till sch reopens!why is it that whenever i suddenly like a celebrity(or a grp of celebrities in this case),it wld be time to get serious with work again..like nodame cantabile during A levels,wang leehom during the previous exam..or is it that i m not concentrating enough on work that i find such things to engross myself..

ah i find that i like someone very easily and can forget about it very easily too..

listening to: Super Girl by Super Junior M

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this is the dunno how many times i m at my computer typing a blog entry while people are counting down to the new year.this year,i was in the toilet when i heard people shouting "happy new year!" nice moment huh..no special feelings actually,but just wanted to visit my "long time no write" blog..new year,new beginnings,new challenges,new stresses(but old problems)..hope everyone take it easy and jus rmb to stay happy =D