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现在在地铁上，耳边赢绕着王源的《十七》，硕士毕业后的第二天，忽然感觉自己好像时间多得不得了，是时候做一些在别人眼中无用的事了。
在准备考试和弄论文答辩的presentation时忽然莫名其妙的喜欢上tfboys （其实也不莫名奇妙吧）,想了一大堆乱七八糟的事，还想过要写“我为什么会喜欢上tfboys”的论文，也真是有点疯了。但是疯一下也无所谓，就想记录一下心路历程，以后也可以回味一下最开始爱上一个人的感觉。
在他们之前，我唯一那么疯狂的喜欢的明星是super junior 。永远不会忘记第一次看到他们是在2009年的娱乐百分百，是sjm宣传super girl的时候。他们的搞笑和...

1 more day to...???

just less than 25 hours before my masters thesis oral and my mood is now in a mess. i feel like i m getting depression. crying for reasons i understand, but crying so hard. wanting to just let everything go. i know after some time when i read this i will probably just smile and think this is a small and unimportant event in my life, but right now i m just suffocating. there are so many things in this world worth doing, helping people and contributing to society, but i feel no urge and have no will to do it. i don't want to understand the world, understand the world around me, i just want to do what i feel like doing, just like a child. i just want to cry to my heart's content. i just want to...i don't even know what i want to do. in this city, most ppl are just living by going with the society's flow. i don't know if most ppl are happy, or just living by the day, living based on what the society expects of their roles. their roles as children, siblings, spouses, parents, employees, colleagues, bosses, friends, leaders, followers...

10 more days to...???

i wanted to write '10 more days to freedom', but not sure if it really means freedom when i finish my masters studies, since i already know life is just an endless route of working and suffering -_-. just like this masters which was suffering i brought onto myself. but having something to look forward to is not bad, my new aim of changing industry to programming! though it is still unclear and full of uncertainties, but 梦想虽然看不清楚，但是它确实就在眼前. such a meaningful line from an 偶像剧. yeah first thing after masters, go watch all those stuff i wanted to watch. that's the best aim ever ha

and then there was nothing done..

pun of the novel title..i seriously dunno what i m doing with my life..but i have nothing that i want to achieve..i just want to live an easy life and do things i want to do..is that wrong? y is life so meaningless..maybe i need to be super unfortunate before i can value living.

resolution time..again..

just realised my previous post is also about resolutions. time to make some again since semester is starting soon and i haven't done much about my thesis. sigh.

- need to stop playing the handphone games that i is not that fun but take up lots of time
- need to stop reading new novels because they take up even more time
- stop watching a drama at such a fast speed. let's finish the good one first, slowly, then take some time to digest and start working and not start a new drama
- sleep at 12am latest, which means i need to prepare to sleep at 11.30 latest, which means like NOW

ok time to prepare to sleep then. bye.