nope i haven't miss eating rice yet. what i miss is the warmth, ppl who r not tt outgoing but who care abt me, ppl who i can understand and who can understand me. without all these, now i m depending on the warmth of familiar songs and shows to keep me going. i just want to be myself, i dun wan to change myself to fit into the crowd, because i realised that makes me uncomfortable and even more unhappy. i dun need to make everyone like me, i dun need to make everyone happy. i just have to be myself confidently and do what i want to do and those who can accept me will be ok, those who cannot i dun need to care.
one thing gd abt netherlands and dutch tt i heard and read this past few days is that they make friends only because they need to use them. this is in line with my thinking, might sound selfish to others but it doesn't matter. i like to be by myself unless i need help. and i need frens when i need help. i dun mind ppl approaching me if they need help, and i dun mind them being my frens only because they want to use me. i will help wherever i can. it feels easier for me that way. it's too tiring to keep trying to do something u dun wan to do.
张杰 is officially my new idol. his voice is so warm, his songs keep me warm even though i m walking in the snow. the thought tt true love exists in the world (杰么娜), tt someone loves you wholeheartedly and is loyal to u forever and see the side of u tt nobody else can see. 这大概就是爱情最美的样子
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