who can i blame but myself?

i feel bad..i m a bad person..i know i m a bad person but i don't want to change which makes me even worse than bad..i feel like i m having 0 willpower..i feel like sleeping forever,to escape all i need to do..i don't feel like using my brains..i don't feel like doing things that i don't like doing..which includes a lot of things..i feel like lying on my bed and doing nothing..i don't want to be disliked by my group members but i don't feel like working to prevent that..i feel like i m going towards doom..i want to close my eyes..my body is tired and my mind too..i cannot gather anymore strength now..i cannot even continue typing..