tired and inspired..

finished exams today and went for a fren's 新书座谈会 to give her a surprise..20 years old and she's already published her first book (i'd really like to say the title here but am afraid of 'exposing' my blog to anyone i know.i can only say i m very determined not to let anyone i know discover this during my lifetime,though probably no one is interested in it anyway)..it's sort of a diary of the times she had bipolar disorder (in more layman's terms,it's a kind of depression) and a reflection of those times and how she got out of it..we were classmates during her most difficult times but i m guilty of not noticing her mood swings and the difficult period she was going thru..but,being the strong girl that she is,she gradually recovered from it and is now a cheerful girl again (though she admitted she still had down times and is still on medication)..

sometimes i admire wat others have achieved and look at my own life..i live a happy life and under the protection of my parents and without any major episodes in my life,i do not feel a need to change and thus my personality can only be summarised in one word: lazy.maybe i need some big unhappy thing to fall on me before i change,but i hope it will never come.anyway i m too drowsy now to want to write anything more..

and suddenly i realised i wanted to write this entry because i wanted to complain how i dun feel like exams are over because choir camp is next monday and i haven't started learning those carols that i m supposed to have known already and i totally don't feel like starting.procrastinate is my middle name.ok actually i have no middle name since i m a chinese.so procrastinate can be my full name then.ok watever.i m talking crap now.

p.s. my arms are aching because i had to carry 2 dictionaries + 2 harry potters/university physics textbook(which is heavier than 4 harry potters) to sch and back today.and tomorrow i am playing badminton.nice one.