priorities in life...

i m a student.this is a fact i know n i accept.i m sec 4 now and i should concentrate on my work so that i can get gd results for o levels.i should know my priority and manage my time well.all these r things tt r expected of me but not i want to do.today during cca we discussed about knowing your priorities and doing them first.so we shared about our priorities.when it was my turn i did really know what to say but in the end i said that i want to find my goal in life.
i mean i still don't know what i want to be when i grow up.i have no interests except sleeping and listening to and singing songs.i can't possibly be a singer because i m not suitable to be one definitely.i m ugly n i do not have a good voice.i treat singing as a fun thing n something for relieving stress.sometimes i also feel that peer pressure is very heavy on me.people won't expect a person like me to become a singer.i mean there is no part in me which is like a singer.their doubt when i say i want to become a singer makes me feel that my "in-the-air sandcastle" can nv be built.
ok,so i said my priority in life is finding my goal.to do that i need to find my interest first.n my interest is definitely not in studying.often i feel that studying is not really impt.i mean i m still feeling that way.all my frens and teachers n vice principals n principal sound as if if i can't get gd results in o level i will die for sure.i mean studying n tests n exams r juz a small part of our life rite?i feel as if my frens' lives are just studying for tests n exams.they r simply placing too much emphasis on them.many times they will say "die lah,sure fail one" after a test.(almost all who say this kind of thing will NOT fail,they juz like to say that,for a reason i do not know)so i ask them "y will u die if u fail this test?i mean even if u fail o levels so what?u won't die rite?unless u commit suicide or your parents kill u."they would say they can't get a gd job in future n i would say why not.if u have a skill u would still become an expertise in your area of work rite?n anyway even if u nv get a gd job u wouldn't die rite?i mean if u r willing to work,u will nv die!行行出状元,if u can be an expert road sweeper,u r still of great use to the society n u can still be alive.that is what i can promise u.